Extraordinary

Chapter 63: Foolish Nerves

Chapter 63:  Foolish Nerves

The three weeks of recuperating and singing fly by before I know it.  Tomorrow is it.  Tomorrow are the open auditions to see if I’d be able to sing in front of the actual judges either because I’m that good or just plain entertaining.  For my case, I hope it’s the first option, but I can’t help but think that I may make the audience laugh to if I sound that ridiculous.  I hope I don’t.  I don’t think I would.  It seems unlikely that I would, right?  If you couldn’t tell, I’m getting really nervous right now.  This would always happen before I had to present a project or compete in a football match.  It’s this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach that makes you feel like you’re going to throw up and pass out at the same time.  The worst part is that it doesn’t go away until the event you’re nervous for is over. 

I turn my body on the bed so I’m facing the ticking clock on the wall, reading that it’s around 8:30.  Louis pestered me earlier to get to bed early so we would be able to get up and get going with a few hours of sleep to tie me over.  I knew that arguing with him was completely pointless, so I fulfilled my duties of getting everything ready for tomorrow morning.  I didn’t really need to bring much other than my phone and maybe some money.  Chloe helped me earlier this evening to pick out an outfit, which I didn’t really see the point to since I wasn’t standing in front of 5,000 people and 4 celebrity judges.  But I let her help me anyways, agreeing on one of my royal blue v-neck t-shirts, black skinny jeans, and my classic converse.  Simple, casual, and a little dressed up with Louis’ winged necklace that he gave me.  I think it’ll make a good luck charm.

Louis was sleeping beside me, a few inches away with soft snores trailing from his side of the bed.  How was he able to fall asleep this early in the evening? I guess he’s just used to it with all the going to bed early or late and then having to get up early.  Maybe that’s what he did when he was trying out for X Factor.  Or was he like me, racked with nerves and wide awake with all the possible outcomes of how his life could be changed just by a thirty second audition?

I’m over-thinking this aren’t I? I need to take my mind off of this so I can get to sleep.  But I can’t just tell myself to stop thinking.  I have to try something else.  As quietly and as slowly as I can without waking Louis, I slip out of bed and out of my room.  I walk down the hallway to my living room, moving over to my TV stand and crouching down to dig through my cabinet of DVDs.  I decide on Breaking Dawn Part 1, just so I can watch the wedding scene and then go right back to bed without Louis even acknowledging my absence from bed.  I carefully put the DVD into the player and immediately turn the volume down when I turn the TV on, waiting for my movie to appear on screen and press play when it does.  Then I crawl over to my couch, climbing up onto my couch and lying my head down on the pillow at the end and stretching my feet out.  Now I could start to feel a twinge of fatigue come upon me as the movie officially starts.

I watch all the way to where Bella is getting ready before I see Louis’ shadow slowly trudge down the hallway.  Once he walks out into the living room, he looks up at me and slightly smiles.

“Lola…why aren’t you in bed?” He scolds me playfully. I shrug, then look back at the screen.  Watching more TV would only make trying to get to sleep worse, so why am I not in bed? I sit up on the couch, pulling my knees to my chest as he makes his way over.

“Lola we can’t just stay up watching your cliché vampire movies,” He chuckles, watching the screen.

“Why not?” I argue.

“Because you need to sleep,” He says, looking at me.  “We’ve got a long day ahead of us tomorrow,”

“Don’t remind me,” I mumble under my breath, although I’m almost certain he heard me.