HAPPY BIRTHDAY/MERRY CHRISTMAS - OPEN LETTER

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ni MissYelleVii

ni MissYelleVii

Open Letter to You ♥️
Happy Birthday! ♥️
Wala akong mawi-wish for you kasi You've got everything. I just have a message, a reflection as well.

I am ever thankful for your birth. For giving me the freedom and a chance to see the world brighter and its people with different perspectives.

Sa lahat ay Ikaw lang ang hindi nang-iwan. Sa lahat ng inalisan ko, Ikaw lang ang tumatanggap sa akin ng buong puso. Sa Iyo lang ako nagpabalik-balik ng walang takot na baka hindi totoo ang pagtanggap Mo sa akin; na baka mamaya pala tinanggap Mo lang ako dahil gaganti Ka. Ikaw lang ang kaisa-isang iniwan ng milyon-milyong tao pero tinatanggap Mo pa rin kapag bumabalik Sa'yo.

I am aware of my deeds. My negligence, my untruthfulness. I am aware of what I did in return to Your kindness, Your providence, guidance and everything; darkness to pay Your glittery blessings. I AM SORRY.

I am one of those people na kapag gagawa ng mali sorry na lang nang sorry pero paulit-ulit naman na gagawin. Is it because we know You'll forgive us? Honestly, no! Please believe me, alam kong mapapatawad Mo ako kahit paulit-ulit kong gawin pero hindi ko ginugustong magpabalik-balik sa ganoon. Iyong tipong mas marami pang beses na nagawa ko ang masama kaysa ang mabuti. I really want to end it. How can I not sin? Paano? Kasi alam kong kahit naman nagso-sorry ako, bumabalik ako, still I have hurt You already.

I know when You forgive someone, You 'forget' the sin. Not like me or us, na kapag napatawad namin ay mabubuksan pa rin in the future, at maisusumbat pa din namin. But even if our sin does not matter to you anymore when we regret and repent, for me it still does. Hurting you, disappointing you, disobeying you - that is the truth that still remains kahit na sabihin pang napatawad Mo ako.

And yes, heto na naman ako sa punto ng buhay ko na inaalala lahat ng nagawa kong mali Sa'yo. But it is just like a cycle na pagkatapos humingi ng tawad ay magkakasala na naman. Right now I don't know how to end it, but I will hold on to You tighter than the past few years. Show me the fastest way to You, avoiding the heavy traffic Satan caused.

I am glad that you still hold me too. Kahit ilang beses na akong bumitaw at nakalimot. Kahit ang tagal ko nang hindi pumapasok sa bahay Mo, I can still feel Your presence. Sa mga pinagdaanan ko recently, here I am, still breathing and was able to reach another Christmas. And Thanks to You again. That is a very strong proof that You have not forsaken me. That You are still fighting for me, so I will continue to fight because I have the largest sheild and the strongest armor with me...

I can still count on my fingers the times that I have told you this, aware that I have not done enough for You to feel it, but I LOVE YOU, JESUS. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

Someday I will be able to have you feel it too.
Happy Birthday!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
♥️
I owe the BIG ONE a BIG ONE!