How it Should Be

Rey's P.O.V.

He kissed me. Ben Solo kissed me.

"Ben?" I ask.

He smiles at me and pulls me closer to him so our foreheads are touching. I've never seen him smile before. It suits him. But his smile starts to fade and so does mine. Something isn't right I can feel it.

Ben started to fall backwards but I held him up, he's dying. He saved me but he's dying no, no he can't die not now.

"No, Ben stay here, please with me, please fight it. Please be with him like you were for me. Please," I call upon the past Jedi to save him. "I need him here please Leia don't take him yet."

Leia is dying I can feel it, and she's calling Ben to come with her. He's just gotten back to who he is he can't be taken away so fast. But he's still not breathing.

I place my forehead on his, trying to reach him wherever he is. "Ben please don't go." I say with tears in my eyes.

All the sudden I'm somewhere different. It's white. All white around me. "Rey I can't help it if it's my time. Please don't be upset," Ben says from behind me. I turn to face him, "But Ben it's not. You're Ben again. No Final Order no Supreme Leader Kylo Ren, you are Ben again. The galaxy deserves to see you for you."

"How can the galaxy go on knowing a tyrant, murderous, sorry excuse of a man is still living, trying to redeem himself? People will hunt me down and try to kill me. It's better this way." Ben says looking at his feet.

A hand appeared on his shoulder, I hear his father start to speak. "Ya know Ben she's right. You make her fall in love with her just to die in her arms? That's a bit harsh don't you think? Go son, your mom and I will be just fine. When your time comes you'll know. We'll be here to bring you home. We love you son."

Ben stares at him, in disbelief I think. My cheeks are a little red at Han's comment about me loving him but I'm not going to deny it. "Are you sure, dad?" Ben asks

"Yeah Ben go, live your life like your mother and I lived ours you deserve it. Be happy with Rey. Your mom and I definitely approve." Han said with a wink, kissed Ben on the side of his head, and looked at me. "Take care of him."

"I will. I promise." I reply.

Han smiles and walks away, disappearing after a few steps. Ben looks at me in disbelief. "Come on Ben." I say, and hold my hand out for him to grab it, as we've done so many times but failed. But this time, he takes my hand and I take his. Our surroundings change back to the place where he just died. He's back in my arms, looking into my eyes as our foreheads are still touching. "I love you." Is the first thing he says.

"I love you too Ben Solo." I say back to him and kiss him, my hands on either side of his face.

We break apart and smile. "I'm sorry if you wanted to go, I just couldn't let you with out saying goodbye." I say.

"Our first kiss isn't a good enough goodbye?" He laughs.

"That's just it, I couldn't let our first kiss be out last. I also hadn't told you I love you either so I had to get to you. I always will find you Ben."

"Thank you Rey. Thank you." He says again and hugs me with every ounce of love he has in him. I hug him back.

"Come on let's get out of here. Somehow." Ben says.

We return to the platform that takes us up to the surface. The resistance defeated Palpetines fleet of destroyers. They're all getting ready to leave when I see Han's ship flying to us. Chewie and Lando are piloting, and I see Finn and Jannah standing behind them. Finn sees Ben with his arm draped over my shoulders because I'm helping him stand up and walk, and I see him bolt to the ships door. They land and Finn comes running out blaster drawn.

"Finn! No I know what it looks like but let us explain! He's not going to hurt anyone!" I stand in front of Ben.

"What do you mean he won't hurt anyone? You've seen him first hand Rey move!" Finn yells. I don't budge.

I hear Chewie roar as he exits the ship and he walks up to Ben and I, oddly quietly.

"Chewie, I know what he's done but he's changed. You have to believe me he's not the same person anymore." He stays quiet, locked eyes with Ben.

"I know what I did, and ever since I did it it's been killing me inside. I regret it. I regret everything I've ever done in my life. I know I'm a terrible person. But Rey and I just saved each other's lives because I can't stand to live with out her. Please I've changed and I'm willing to do whatever I need to to make it up to everyone. I'll act like I'm not alive if that's what you guys want and you'll never have to see me again." Ben says.

Chewie lets out a big roar and wraps his arms around Ben, in a hug. I panicked for a moment but Chewie is hugging him.

"I'm so sorry Chewie. God I've missed you." Ben says as he hugs him back.

Ben grew up with Chewie so that explains everything. They break apart from their hug, and Chewbacca tells them he's different and he forgives him for killing Han. Lando talks to Ben and Ben tells me to go talk to Finn, who still hasn't holstered his blaster.

We all board the ship and plan our return to the Resistance base. I sit down next to Ben at the table just outside the cockpit.

"I know you're not okay with this. You have every right to be, but Finn he's changed. I killed Palpetine and in doing so I died. It was all dark for a few moments and I woke up to Ben holding me. He saved me. And I did the same thing for him. I know it's confusing but Finn, Ben has changed. He called himself a murderous tyrant while-"

"Because he is one." Finn cuts me off.

"Not anymore! You have to be open minded on this. Skywalker faced him on Crait because he knew there was still good in him. When I turned myself into him he killed Snoke to save my life. He is a good person who was enticed by bad people. He's a good man, Finn. Please don't do anything to him, he's trying he really is." I plead

"Do you love him?" Finn asks. His eyes look like they want me to say no, but I won't lie to him.

"Yes. And he loves me. I know this is all a lot to take in but please Finn, give him a chance."

"Whatever." Finn scoffs and gets up, leaving me alone at the table. I wish I could make him see what I see in Ben. He sits down next to Jannah, and starts talking to her I'm assuming about the conversation we just had. I feel someone sit down next to me, it's Ben.

"He has feelings for you. He's only upset I'm here because I'm here with you." Ben says.

"Finn? No, he doesn't- no he couldn't. We're friends."

"Maybe to you but to him, it's different."

I let out a sigh and rest my head on Bens shoulder. "How's your leg feeling?" I ask him.

"Better," He replies "Is my mother at this base we're going to?"

"Yes she is. She's still with us I can feel it." I answer. He wants to say goodbye to her. We can both feel she doesn't have much time left.

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