How it Should Be

She Was Gone

Ben's P.O.V.

Rey and I shared a bed last night, considering there wasn't another in the room and she insisted I didn't sleep on the floor. Her and I are some of the most complicated people I have ever come to know.

It was cramped, and we faced away from each other while we were trying to fall asleep.  I woke up to a small breeze on my face, and Rey's face was maybe an inch from mine, and her hand was on top of mine.

I memorized her face, the start of wrinkles, freckles, everything. She is my everything. My other half.

The room was naturally bright considering the sun came up a long time ago.

"Rey?" I whispered softly.

Her eyes flickered and she let out a groan and buried her face into the pillow.

I laughed a little, "Rey come on get up. We gotta get up"

"What if I don't want to?" She asks.

"Not an option let's go."

I got up and walked to the bathroom, "I'm getting a shower and when I get out you better not be in that bed still."

She waved at me with her face still in the pillow. I started my water and got in the shower.

All my thoughts were about her. Since I met her, all of our battles, I never wanted to hurt her. There was always something in me telling me dont hurt her, don't hurt her, and I never did. I told Luke I would destroy her, destroy the last Jedi. But I think he knew even then I wouldn't. I couldn't in fact.

I put on clean clothes and make my hair presentable. I open the door to our room and Rey is at the table by the window, eating her breakfast. There's a plate across from her waiting to be eaten.

"Come, sit," she gestures to the seat, "Chewie just brought it in a few minutes ago."

I sat down and started my meal. I was hungry and hadn't eaten a proper meal in days.

"You look beautiful, ya know?"

Rey looked up at me from her food with a chuckle, "What?"

"Beautiful, you look beautiful. You always do."

"Why are you trying to butter me up? What did you do?" She laughs.

"I'm not, is it so bad I want to call you beautiful? I've wasted so much time I could have had with you. I messed up too many times with you. I want to get it right this time and men are supposed to compliment their... um.."

We looked at each other awkwardly. We don't know what we are to each other. We never really put that much thought into it.

"I believe the term is 'girlfriend'." I blurted out.

"So that's what this is?"

"If you want it to be. Keep it between us for now or what ever is okay with you. I want to be someone to you other than someone you care about, I want you to be able to call me something."

"Alright, if that's what you want. We can put a label on us."

I smiled my biggest smile at her. She smiled back.

So there's an us now. I can call her my girl.

She finished her food before I finished mine so she got a shower while I finished my meal.

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Fire. Everything is on fire. They're burning down the forests and everyone is running for their lives. I can't find Po or Chewie or anyone. I can't find Rey. I think they took her.

I'm standing still in the middle of a massacre. The troopers are marching in off the transports. They're murdering the civilians.

And I don't know where she went.