One Thing Right | Post Malone

16

a broken heart is blind
Little Black Submarines - The Black Keys

A few weeks after we got back from Ireland, it was time for Austin to go back on tour. I couldn't believe how close we were to being together for a year. We had seen each other for the first time again a week after his Fourth of July birthday and even though it was a couple months away I was so excited.

Before he caught his flight, Austin agreed to go hiking with me. I was surprised but he seemed like he was very excited.

"Well what's something 'down to earth' that you want to do?" He asked me, swirling an unlit cigarette between his fingers. "Something you haven't done in a while that you use to love to do."
"Hiking." The smile on my face grew bigger at Austin's reaction.
"I'm sorry? Did you just say hiking?"
"There's plenty of other things to do, it's just that Utah is absolutely beautiful...and I want to be the one to show you."
"Well I've seen the most beautiful part of it already." He leaned forward to kiss me and I laughed when he pulled away.
"Does that mean you don't want to go?"
Austin chuckled and contemplated lighting a cigarette. "No, I do. I'd love to."

"Do you regret it yet?" I asked him as we walked a mediocre trail. He hadn't had a cigarette in three hours and I was proud.
"Not yet." He wasn't out of breath but we were both sweating and able to enjoy the scenery. We made it to the top of one of the destinations and I took out my phone to take a picture of the gorgeous view, Austin included. We set the phone up on a rock with a timer so we could take a couple pictures together. The first we smiled with our arms out, the second we kissed and the third we were laughing as usual.

I packed a secret lunch for us and set everything up. I even packed a bud light for my boyfriend but he didn't want to drink it.
"Are you okay? Heat stroke?" I joked while feeling his forehead. He laughed and grabbed my hand before kissing the back of it.
"I'm actually really enjoying myself. It feels like a spiritual cleanse." He closed his eyes and looked up towards the sky. I couldn't help but burst out laughing before looking around and sparking my blunt.

"So a month, huh?" It has been silent as we drove home, closer and closer to the moment we'd have to say goodbye.
"A month and a half at most.." For a change, we went to Austin's house and enjoyed his master bath shower. It was a long shower, slow and sensual - usually we'd make it fast at my house because of the hot water or Sophia.

Austin trailed kisses down my neck and across my shoulder. I allowed his big warm hands to run over every inch of my body, glad we were in the shower because I was beginning to become emotional.
"Baby.." Austin kissed my lips and pulled my face up to look at his. "What is it?"
"I'll just be missing you.." Our kisses were slow and full of love, holding each other close under the running water.

I was laying on his bed, in a T-shirt, sinking into the soft mattress, scrolling through Instagram.
"I'm giving you a key for when I'm gone."
"Do you need me to water your Ficus?" I asked him as he jumped onto the bed.
"I was thinking that when you miss me, you can sleep in my bed." He pulled my close to him under the sheets and ran his hands down my arm. "And I can know you're safe."
"Safe from what? Psycho fans?" I asked him with some sarcasm in my voice, but I did receive a few death DM's a day. Austin only laughed and kissed my collar bone, then put on The Walking Dead. We started over and had just finished the 7th season.

"You can't watch it while I'm gone, though."
"Are you kidding?? This is literally the biggest cliff hanger!" Austin shrugged his shoulders but never wiped the smile off his face. "Fine, I'll just restart Jersey Shore."
"I'd rather you watch our show," he joked as if he was disgusted.

When it came to saying goodbye, it never got easier. I tried not to cry but I held Austin as long as I could, taking in the smell of his skin and rush of his touch.
"Just 4 weeks baby. We got this." He cradled my face and looked into my eyes as he told me this, planting soft kisses all over my face.
"4 weeks," I nodded as I assured him, even though my heart was pumping twice as hard. I closed the door as he got into his car but looked out the window as he drove away. I closed my eyes and let a tear fall down but didn't let myself feel as sad as I wanted to. Sophia was coming home any minute so I couldn't let her see me like this. I ran to my room and lit up a joint Austin rolled for me before hiding my fake hollow book in the bathroom drawer.