The love I had and didn't

No regrets

JJ pov
I walk away from Janet mad as hell how dare her come out here talking to me like we r friends r like she is still apart of my life she hasn't talk to me for years even after hearing what my mum did and I no she heard she has not one reach out to see how I'm doing and no matter what happened between us I would have reach out to her if it was the other way around we were best friends before lovers she was there to help me with my homework because I didn't have the chance to do it because I had to be up with Natalie when she couldn't sleep because she hear mum and dad arguing and she was petrified that dad will move out again she was there when I had to get up with Liam because he wet the bed because he had to keep secret from everyone because he didn't want to break up the family she was there when I had to be a mum and dad to my brother and sister because mum and dad was busy with their company but now when I need her not even one text and she now coming to me talking about my mum not about me r my feelings. and don't get me wrong it's not it wasn't one way. I was there for her too when she was having problems at home and had to move in with her aunt Sara I was the one who when to Sara and talk to her I no I hurt her and she may never forgive me for that but I thought we were friends. And friends are meant to be there for each other no matter what.
I walk back into sky room and everyone turn and look at me even Janet husband they could tell I was mad. So he got up and leave out the room
Li- bro is everything ok
JJ- yeah I just came to kiss sky and go and get some sleep I'll be back later
L- son u don't have to leave we can ask them to put a bed in here for u
D- yeah son in case she wakes up looking for u
JJ- dad I'll only be across the road I'm going to book a room in hotel across the road
N- go get some rest u must be tired and u won't be able to sleep here with us all here
Li- yeah Nat is right I'll call u when she wake up
JJ- thanks
M- JJ can we talk please
JJ- not now I'm tired and I really don't want to say something I'll regret so please I'm asking u for time and space
M- how much more time and space do u want u been away for over a month have not talk to u r seen u so how much more time do u want
JJ- u want to talk ok talk say what u got to say and after that leave me the hell alone
D- JJ stop it that's ur mum u r talking
JJ- mum mum u r having a laugh right
N- JJ please stop and go to ur hotel room
JJ- no it's ok Lola want to talk so let her talk
Next thing I feel was my mum boxing me across my face and I must say that shit hurt all I could do is stand there and look at her
L- don't u dare talk to me like that I'm your mother I bring u in to this world and I'm not afraid to take u out of it, u hear me
I didn't say anything but just stand there
L- cat got your tongue, come on son u had a lot to say a minute ago so go on
N- mum don't do this don't push him anymore than u already have, u have push, and push him and if u carry on u r going to push him right out the door and u won't get him back all he ask u for was space and time so give it to him
L- and I did I gave him months he need to grow the hell up the child isn't his so he need to get over it and put all that shit behind him and move on
Li- mum
JJ- it's ok Liam mum is right
L- yeah son I no u would see that I only do the things I do for ur own good, now about u and Nat birthday dinner
JJ- I'm going to move on and the first thing I'm moving on from is u
L- what
JJ- let me finish like I let u finish, I want u out my life I want u to stay the hell away from me as for as I'm concern u r dead to me
N- oh god josh don't say that
JJ- I'm sorry Nat but she is she has cost me nothing but pain and now I need to heal and the only way to do that is to cut her out my life
L- u don't mean that son
JJ- I do mother all I wanted was time but everything as to be an Lola time but now it's on mine dad Liam Nat I love u and I'm only a phone call away if u need me and if u need me to still be around for sky I will
Li- u will always be sky dada bro
JJ- see u guys
J- what about the company
JJ- is it mine r not
J- it's yours
JJ- so I'll continue to run it, talk late u lot
L- JJ please son I'm sorry don't walk away from I'm sorry son please talk to me
With that I walk out the room hearing my mum sob I know Charlene will be disappointed in me but I hope she can forgive me
I made my way to the lift to find Janet crying on her husband shoulder when they saw me coming he gave me the evil eye and she gave me a sad look but none of their look bother me I said what I said and I have no regrets