Between Us [ZhuiYiship]

: 14th 1.1

Lan JingYi's POV

His starry eyes sparkled like a gem.
I just now realized how I missed those gentle eyes.

My feet lead me to come to him,
As I take a careful step, I'm feeling anxious.. what if this is just all a dream?

What if I wake up suddenly?

I can't stop my heart from beating so loud. If I'm already near him, I'm worried if he would hear the loud rumbling beats of my heart.

" ...S--SiZhui."
I called out trembling.

" Hmmn. "
He replied with a nod looking up to me as I am standing in front of him.

I don't know how it happened but I let myself be swept away by my odd emotions and so I bent as I immediately come closer to him, buried myself in his chest and embraced him like I don't wanna let him go... ever again...

Not long after and I felt as SiZhui hugged me back, it felt very comforting.

" ....Why are you crying??"
He asked almost in a whispered tone,

" Are you stupid? I've missed you.."
I replied as I held him tighter.

Damn it. Where did all the awkward things that happened to us two years ago went?

I think , it flew away as well.

SiZhui didn't answered instead he motioned in releasing from me.
And I'm starting to feel embarrassed.

I then released away and sit properly beside him.
And as I looked at SiZhui...
I'm astonished as he seemed to be unhappy and uncomfortable.

I knew I got carried away.
I'm shameless, recalling that we aren't in good terms before he went away.

A minute passed and none of us are still opening up.

I keep on catching a glimpse of SiZhui's face and he is only caring on petting the rabbits...
I noticed he looked more matured now or am I only imagining it since I haven't look up this close to him after the past two years?
He looked too serious since he is not smiling... he's almost wearing a blank expression.
I see, he changed.
Of course, what would I expect upon those past two years.

I'm disappointed that he kinda lose to show to me now his very bright as the sun smile.

Won't he talk to me?
But who am I again?
I am a friend of him yet why I'm starting to feel like I am a nuisance?

" Err... SiZhui ..."

And SiZhui reeled to me then look back to the rabbits again.
He seemed indifferent now...

" Well... where did you go these past two years?" I opened,

" I wander around with Wen Ning."
He answered without even looking at me.

" Is that so... "

And silence invaded us again.

" SiZhui ... I would like to ask you something ..."

" Hmmn? "

" Why have you left without telling me? "
I sternly asked looking straight at him.

Am I asking too much?
I deserve it, right?
I'm... his friend.

He flinched a bit.
And he looked at me with his indifferent eyes.

" I... I am sorry. "
He expressed stammering,

Why is he like that?
Why it's kinda annoying for me to hear his 'sorry'?

Ain't I heard those a lot of times before he left?

Is that all he would say to me that his back now?

Why I felt like I am in no position to have his explanation?
Why do I felt like I am worthless to him?

I'm almost losing my mind...
My heart is like being clenched by  big hands...

I want those inward questions to ask  him right now yet he felt like a stranger sitting beside me.

" W...why are y--you like that.. SiZhui?"

I strengthen my will not to let my tears fall as I asked him without blinking,

But he only looked at me then to the rabbits again.

Out of frustration...
I suddenly  grabbed him by both shoulders facing him to me straight and I earned his surprise face.

" Tell me!? Why are you like that to me SiZhui?!!"
I exclaimed in remorse lightly shaking him.

" Ain't I... ----- SiZhui, I am your friend! Why can't you -------"

" No. "

He interrupted me with a firm 'No.'
I was taken aback, very aghast.

" What? "

" Though I took back what I said before and asked you to forget it.
We both know that genuine feelings won't fade in a heartbeat. How can that be possible to be friends with someone I like? ... I'm sorry."
He said sternly with a sad smile on his lips as he took off my grasp of him.

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A/N : Did I hear some heartstrings snapped ?  Did I burst some bubbles?
OTHER ME: LET'S BLAME THE AUTHOR!
AZUSA: NO! We have nothing to do ... SiZhui changed, be it...  <\3
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