I Don't Want To Hurt You- Suga

Sick

*2 weeks later*

Suga's concert got more and more packed. He had more work and work. I had more and more free time but not with him.

I had nothing to do today but listen to my parents argue. I took out my sketch book and started to draw. I said in my head "I think I should tell Suga every problem that I have."

I wanted to leave this prison and just go do my own thing. My mother came in my room angry and said "What are you doing?! Painting again?!"

I froze in my spot and got scared. She got my paint and threw it all over the floor. Some splashed on my face and almost everything around me. She ripped my sketch book pages in half and threw them on the floor.

I thought I would throw up as it hurt to see my drawings destroyed and everything else. She came and attacked me. She started to pull my hair and hit me.

My blood boiled up as she left like nothing happened and expected me to be ok with everything she did. I didn't even clean myself up as I could see the sketch paper absorbing the paint from the floor, infront of me. I hadn't been attacked like this in a few months and here she goes again. I wanted to cry as anger took over me. I didn't like to cry as I felt weak but I couldn't do nothing.

My sister gasped as she came in and sat next to me. "It's ok I'll give you my school supplies." She said.

I lied to her as I said "It's ok my friend has my other paint stuff."

My sister smiled and said "Ok just tell her to give them to you."

I nodded and said "I will. Now go before mom comes and yells at both of us."

My sister said "She's just mad because she says dad cheated on her again."

I chuckled and said "They're crazy."

She left and I was left alone.

I could feel my cheek twitching and burning hot. Well most of the places where she hit me felt hot. I hardly got bruises because whenever I got angry I didn't really feel nothing until afterwards. It got dark outside and my father wasn't even home.

I whispered "What a cheater. I don't even know why he comes back here. I don't even know why she accepts him back here."

I started to cry. Usually, I felt angry at first then I got emotional.

*Tap Tap*

I heard a noise from my window and I felt my heart beat go crazy when I saw him. "Oh no! I whispered.

I whipped my tears but I rubbed paint in my eyes. My eyes started to burn like hell. I blew air with my hands but it felt worse. I opened the window and turned away.

Suga whispered "What happened?! Are you ok?!"

I couldn't resist in crying when I saw him. I ran to him and silently cried. Suga hugged me tight and said "I know you missed me but I didn't know this bad."

I wanted to laugh a little big but everything hurt physically and emotionally.

I opened my eyes and the pain started to fade from my eyes. I saw his white t-shirt and whispered "Sorry."