Somehow Love is Found (BWWM)

Chapter 39: First Argument, First Make Up

"Are you out of your fucking mind?" I yelled, throwing my heel at Leo.

We were in his room and as soon as I got there I went off.

Our agreement was engagement.

Not marriage.

I was livid.

"Octavia calm down-"

My other shoe almost hit his head but he ducked it. Too bad, he needed some sense to be knocked into him.

Was he insane?

I picked up one of his watches and threw it at him. I kept on throwing things at him until his room resembled a war zone.

At last, he had enough. He grabbed my arms and held them above my head, pinning me against the wall.

"Calm the fuck down Octavia," he said, "or I'll make you."

"You could fucking try and fail miserably."

He glared at me.

"I don't get why you're so angry," he said.

I huffed and he looked at my lips, biting his own. I gulped.

This was not it. I was beginning to have urges that I shouldn't have. 

This won't end well.

"We did not have this agreement Leonardo," I said, regaining my composure.

I needed to keep myself cool or else things will escalate.

"Dammit, I know. But I can't do anything about this. My dad is a determined man. Anything to piss Kane Koch off, he'll grab it."

I sucked my teeth.

"Don't give me that horse shit! You look like you've been planning this too!" I yelled, attempting to push him off.

He kept me restrained.

"And what if I have been?" he asked.

The bastard.

I was not ready for marriage. Heck, I didn't think I wanted to curse anyone with being bound in holy matrimony with me.

Only a madman would want to do that to himself.

"I am a madman though."

Fuck, did I just voice my thoughts out loud?

"Let go of me!" I said, raising my leg to kick him.

He grabbed my leg and made it wrap around his waist. Up until now, he was keeping a safe distance from me, but now his body was pressed against mine. He did the same with my other leg.

"Why should I let go of such an intriguing person?" he asked.

I gasped.

I was not liking this.

This cannot and should not be happening. I needed to keep my guard up. He was crossing lines that should not be crossed. The last time that happened, I lost my friend and became nothing more than an ex to him.

I did not want that to happen again.

"I am not Refael Koch," whispered Leo.

"Huh?" 

"That look on your face. You're scared. You're scared that I will turn out to be another Refael," he said.

I...

"Listen Octavia. I know you're scared. I'm scared too. This is a big step. But I do promise you that I am different."

"How?" I asked.