101 Letters Unsent. Ziall.

I'm sorry I have to do this. Everything has gotten way too out of hand. I don't want to do this but with you gone, I can't take it any longer.

You had disappeared on me about a year ago without anything. Not even a single goodbye Zayn. You left mum a note. The few things it said were :

Zayn,

I'm sorry but I have to leave. I love you and always will but we need to stop seeing each other. Find a girl and make her happy.

-Niall.

The second I read that, I broke down. I fell into depression. And started to cut. My sisters always tried to help but they soon figured out that they couldn't. I dropped out if school because I would fall asleep in clad from the lack of blood from cutting in between classes. Louis always tried to help me as much as possible but soon realized he couldn't help either.

He just gave up on me and is now hanging out with Harry and Liam. I have no one anymore. I live alone now. My mum and sisters left about a month ago because all I did was sit around. Not doing anything at all.

I've tried starving myself. It's working actually. I'm really skinny now and I'm impressed. People say I'm going to kill myself by doing that. That's what I'm going for honestly.

Every time I turn my iPod on replay, only one song replays. That's our song.

Smile by Uncle Kracker.

I cry every time. I can't handle this world without you Niall. Why did you have to leave? Why didn't you at least give me a proper goodbye?

I love you forever and always.

I'll see you soon.

-Zayn.

I sighed as I folded the paper up and stuck it in my drawer.

Just yet another letter I will never send.