101 Letters Unsent. Ziall.

Number Fifteen

Niall's POV ( Thought I might do some of his POV (: )

Right now, I was cuddling with Ed. I'm really glad that I found Ed. He's a real sweetheart. I mean he's just so cuddly and lovable and everything and he doesn't treat me like a girl! Surprising right!

I am worried about Zayn though. He has changed ever since I left him and I don't fully understand what the big deal was. Sure I understand he loved me, loves me but he can find someone else! He can find someone else just as fast as I did! Probably even faster!

I know cheating on him was way wrong but I was afraid that if I told Ed about Zayn then he wouldn't want to date me. It turned out he was cheating on his boyfriend also. I don't know what his name was though.

I'm really scared that Zayn is going to do something really stupid. I mean I left him. Big deal. I think he's just a big drama queen or maybe he really did love me and actually wanted me to stay with him? I don't know anymore. I still do like Zayn a lot but I don't think it's the same like it was before.

" Ni? What're you thinking about babe? " Ed asked me and I looked up at him. I smiled a bit and kissed his lips.

" Nothing important. At least I don't think. " I chuckled and cuddled into him more.

" Hey, you know, maybe we could take a vacation? " Ed said suddenly and I leaned back to look at him.

" Really? Where? " I asked excitedly. I love vacations! Zayn took me on one to the USA and we had a total blast! I think it was when we had our first kiss also.

-Flashback-

*On Statue of Liberty*

" Did you have fun today babe? " Zayn asked me as we stood hand in hand on the Statue of Liberty. I looked at him and smiled wildly.

" Yes! It was amazing! " I said and he laughed pulling me closer. The sun was on the horizon and it looked awfully pretty. We stared into each other's eyes for a while before he actually started leaning in. My breath hitched. I smiled and closed the distance between us and just as our lips connected, fireworks shot into the air.

That kiss was simply amazing.

-Flashback Over-

" I don't know, New York maybe? If you want- " I cut him off.

" Yes!!! " I yelled excitedly. I can't wait!

" Alright! Well, let me go book some plane tickets then? " I nodded and he stood up walking into the computer room. I pulled my phone out and saw that I had one picture message.

I opened it and saw a picture of me and Zayn on the Statue of Liberty. How ironic but how the hell did someone get that? I shrugged and closed the message.

I wonder how Zayn is doing.

Zayn's POV.

Niall,

You remember our first kiss right? I remember it like it was yesterday. That sunset on the Statue of Liberty was just incredible wasn't it? I thought it was. I love New York. It's always been one of my favorite states in the U.S.

I just couldn't get that out of my mind because Harry and his girlfriend are going away and I just thought of that.

Oh you know how Lou died? Well I really want to know if you were in that crash too. Because I keep having dreams and I keep seeing blonde hair in the car with Ed.

-Zayn.

I just want this week to go by faster. Because then I know Harry will at least be almost back from Paris and he'll be able to take the letters to Niall.

Yes that means by the end of this week I'll be gone. Out of everyone's lives. For good. It'll be easier that way and I guarantee that.

I sighed lying down in my bed and grabbing the small knife by my bed. I pressed down a little harder than yesterday and sliced my wrist. I felt relief wash over me and I smiled contently. I'm so glad they make sharp objects!

I woke up and smiled as I read a note that Harry had left saying he would be back by the end of the week and that they left.

Time to put my plan into play.

A\N: Short I know but it works because the next few chapters are steps!