101 Letters Unsent. Ziall.

Number Five

-Harry's POV-

" Well guys I have to go okay? I'm meeting someone. Bye Lou! Bye Lili! " I said as I rushed out of Louis' house. Louis just got back from Zayn's house and he said that he told Zayn he couldn't handle it anymore. I feel absolutely terrible to just leave him alone in his state especially after he cut but he isn't improving at all. Liam and Louis totally agree with me. I still haven't figured out why Niall left and I'm surprised because Niall is my cousin and tells me absolutely everything.

I ran into the carry out on the corner and looked around to see if I could find her again. I haven't seen her since the other day when I called Zayn to tell him about her. I've been in here everyday but never seen her again. I walked around a bit to grab a water and went up to the register. I looked up and my eyes met with her beautful blue ones. I smiled.

" Why hello again! " She said with a big smile on her face. He rang up the bottle of water. " That'll be $1.40 please. " She said.

" Hi. " I said nervously as I handed her the money. I grabbed my water and turned around to walk off but remembered that I didn't know her name. I turned back around to meet her gaze again. " Excuse me but I never got your name. " I told her nervously.

" Oh! Well I'm Hillary. " She had that beautiful smile on her face.

" Nice to meet you Hillary. I'm Harry. Uh.. Listen I was wondering if maybe we could hang out sometime? "

" Of course! Here's my number. " She took a napkin and a sharpie and wrote her number down before giving it to me. I smiled.

" All righty then. Well I better be going. Nice to meet you Hillary. I'll text you later! " I said with a wave and opened the door to go outside. I stopped and turned around one more time. " You're very pretty by the way. " She looked down with her pale white cheeks red from a dark blush. I finally made my way out and put her number into my phone.

My gosh she's perfect.

-Zayn's POV-

 I walked outside after cleaning myself up from all the broken glass and decided to take a walk while thinking over everything. I walked over to the park swings and sat on the one Niall sat on the day he told me he was ready. I heard someone talking and crying at the same time so I looked up. It was a boy with brownish blonde hair and was dressed in a tight black shirt and jeans.

" I'm sorry... Please just don't do this... " He cried. He seemed to be on the phone. I just stared at him. He looked like someone I've seen before. This is just weird. " FINE! Bye.! " He hung his phone up and fell to the ground. I stood up and walked over to him. I didn't care that I looked like total shit. I had bandages all over me and my wrists were hurting really bad.

" A-are you okay? " I stuttered out getting the boy's attention. He looked up at me and I looked into deep emerald green eyes. He looks really familiar!

" N-No... my boyfriend just left me... " He said quietly. I knelt down beside him and looked at him.

" Mine left a few days ago. With nothing but a note. " I said tearing up at the memory. I choked back the sob that threatened to escape my throat as the boy gasped.

" I'm so sorry! I'm Logan by the way. " Something clicked. He was the boy from my dream.

" Zayn. " I said shakily. " Want to tell me what happened? " I asked. He nodded and I helped him up to go to the swings. I sat on the one I was previously on and he sat next to me.

" Well... My boyfriend's name was Ed. Ed Sheeran. He was absolutely amazing. He had light red orange hair and everything. He was the sweetest and cutest person ever. Well, he hasn't been home in the last few days and I was getting worried so I tried to call him today. I didn't want to be pushy but I guess I came out that way. I asked him where he was like five different times and he started yelling at me saying that he has been with someone else. " He was about to cry. I could tell he was. " He said that he was cheating for about a week. He left with that person a few days ago without telling me where he was going. I asked with who and he said with a bleach blonde haired boy named Neil or Nail or something. "

You could've probably heard my heart shattered against the ground. Daggers made their ways through my chest, stabbing me over and over and over again. Tears instantly came to my eyes and Logan looked at me. " His name is Niall... " I said barely audible. I sucked in a sharp breath and my phone started to ring. Of course the ringtone just had to be Niall singing and I lost it. I fell onto my knees off the swing and sobbed loudly. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and saw that Niall was actually calling me. I felt two arms wrap around me.

" I'm so so so sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry. Shhhh... " Loagn whispered into my ear. I sniffled and answered the phone without saying hello.

" Why Niall? " Was the first thing I said.

" Zayn let me explain. " He said knowing what I was going on about. I started crying again when I heard the mysterious voice in the background. " Ed hold on! " He growled. Logan's breath hitched as he heard Niall say that.

" W-Why would you cheat on me? W-was I not good e-enough?! " I sobbed.

" Zayn listen! You are good enough. You're perfect. But I just couldn't stay with you. I know cheating was really low but I just couldn't. I still Lo- " My sob cut him off.

" BULLSHIT NIALL! " I screamed before hanging up the phone and throwing it at the ground. Logan was frozen. " I have to go Logan... I don't know if you'll see me again. " I said to him before running off towards my house after grabbing my phone.

It was ringing non-stop and the calls were from Niall. I slammed my bedroom door shut and grabbed the knife before running into my bathroom. I set my phone on the counter listening to Niall's beautiful voice sing Smile as I held the knife to my throat. I pushed down harder than I did the other day.

" ZAYN?! " I heard someone scream from downstairs.

I pressed harder.

I heard running footsteps and then my bedroom door hitting the wall.

Pressed even harder.

Louis showed up in my bathroom door and saw me pressing the knife to my neck. I was at the point that if I pressed any harder it would start bleeding. He ran up to me, slapping the knife out of my hand and pulled me into a tight hug and sitting down on the floor.

" Shh.. Zayn. You're alright now. " He whispered. I sobbed into his chest as he sung quietly to me.

'I won't give Up on Us.

Even if the skies, Get Rough.

I'm giving you All, My, Love.

I'm still Lookin' On.'

Niall,

I can't believe you cheated on me. The days you were gone with your family, you were with him weren't you? I can't believe you actually did that to me... You know how fragile I am when it comes to you.

Why did you do it Niall? Just tell me why.

Today was my first attempt at suicide. Almost got away with it but Louis stopped me. I thought I truely did lose him but I didn't I guess. I'm still trying and wanting to kill myself Niall. It's making it worse that the fact that the reason you were acting really weird with me a week before you just left was because you had another boyfriend.

Niall I just want you to remember something.

Everything I do.

Is for you.

-Zayn.