101 Letters Unsent. Ziall.

Number Eighteen

Step Three : Prepare.

Niall's POV.

Ed got sick. We have to come home tomorrow. Why can't we stay? The doctors tell him that whenever he gets sick they need to see him. The doctor over here don't know about Ed's condition let alone do I so yeah. The plane leaves tomorrow that's why we have to wait.

Zayn's POV.

I awoke from my tossing and turning at about 2 in the afternoon. I didn't want to sleep that late but I did. I walked out of my room and outside so I could jog to the store. I needed to get a few things to prepare for tomorrow.

I had my phone with all the pictures on it with me so I could get my friend Dan to develop them. He works there so it's all good.

I walked in the store and went to where he worked.

" Hey Dan! " I said getting his attention.

" Hey Zayn. How can I help you today? " he asked.

" Can you get all the picture on my phone developed somehow? I really need them by tomorrow. " he nodded and took my phone.

" It'll be about thirty minutes. " I nodded as walked away to the medicine aisle.

I grabbed a bottle of painkillers and paid for them before grabbing a few more things. I was walking around the store for a good twenty minutes before heading back to Dan to see him standing there with my phone in his hand waiting for me.

" Thanks! " I told him with a smile. He smiled back and handed my phone and pictures.

" Bye Zayn! " I waved him a goodbye and left the store with the picture book and painkillers in a bag and the pictures in my other hand with my phone.

I walked home and eager to get this all put together. I ran upstairs to my room once I got home and ripped open the picture book and started sorting the pictures.

I put all the pictures from when me and Niall first started dating first. Our first kiss and our first few dates towards the middle and then the pictures I took while he was gone last.

The picture of my arm when it was stitched up went after the picture of mine and Niall's last date.

Then the picture of me sleeping with blood on my wrists.

And the very last picture I had was the picture where I was smiling genuinely for the picture for Harry.

I wrote in sharpie different captions for every picture until the last one. I wrote turn to back on the front of it and continued to write on the back.

'Everything that's amazing in life goes away too fast. No one knows what to do without that certain person. This is my last ever genuine smile I took a picture of. All the other smiles were fake. I hope everything will get better.'

I closed the book and the wrote To Niall James Horan. On the front of it. I yawned again and realized I spent like four hours just putting all of the together.

I walked in the bathroom and set the painkillers next to the knife and pen and paper. I headed the paper while I was in there.

'Dear Niall, ' is what I started it. I was going to write Harry's letter tomorrow morning when I woke up. I was going to just get it completely over with in the morning. I was going to write Harry's letter. Go into the bathroom, write Niall's then do everything else.

I walked to my desk and started to write Niall a different letter.

Niall,

Today was a long day. Step three. I prepared everything for tomorrow and I am ready to go. I am so happy that tomorrow is the day. No one can stop me you know? I've waited far too long for this.

I'm going to be with Louis tomorrow! I can't wait to feel his hugs again. I'm sorry that I'm going to do this because of you but ever since you left my life has just went completely downhill.

Everyone says they care but I don't feel like they do. It's just really hard to explain. Ever since you left, I've felt lonely. Like no one would even bother to care if I would just disappear so that's what I'm going to do.

I'm sorry. Tomorrow I'll be gone.

-Zayn.

I suddenly started having flashbacks of when me and Niall would go out everywhere together as I stared at the window.

His laughter rang through my head and my vision became blurry. He was so happy. He looks even more happy with Ed now though.

I sucked in a shaky breath but as I let it out, the only thing that came out were cries and tears.

" I miss you so much Niall! " I yelled. " I want you to be mine again! Please! " I begged into the nothingness of my empty room. I acted like Niall was standing right in front of me.

" I'm so sorry! I'll re-do everything in our relationship! I'll do anything to make us work! Anything! Please! " I cried louder. I couldn't stop. No matter how hard I tired, I couldn't stop the tears from falling.

I gripped my pen tighter and tighter as I laid my head down in my arms on the desk. I was shaking uncontrollably.

-Everything will be better tomorrow Zayn.-

Louis' voice filled my ears as I cried to myself. I let go of the pen and yelled one last thing.

" I'll do anything to make you love me! "

I knew he didn't love me. I could tell when he kissed me. I knew he didn't. I knew I couldn't do anything about it either.

" I sure hope everything will be better. " I told Louis and crawled into bed.

-Just think. Tomorrow you'll be with me.-

" I know. "

Tomorrow.

Everything happens.

A/N: Okay. I'm getting to the end of the book. These last few chapters are really short and I'm terribly sorry about that. I think the next chapter will be my last and it hopefully will be longer! (: thanks for reading guys! -AliBear.xx