Desperate Love (A.C and S.M)

heartbreaks

Alessia p.o.v

me and shawn actually had argument yesterday and that has never happened before. our friendship was starting to end right in front of my eyes and i knew that i was never going to be with Shawn. I had to accept that he had a girlfriend and i can't expect him to break up with her. He obviously loves her. I wanted to talk to someone before i started to get even more emotional because I have been fighting my tears for a while and I don't want to let them out.   

I invited Desire over to talk.

Desire: "What's wrong, Ale? U sounded really upset on the phone."

Alessia: "yea, it's about Shawn."

Desire: "What happened?"

Alessia: "You know how I told u that Shawn was dating Camila?"

Desire: "yea.."

Alessia: "it's been approved, they are actually together.."

Desire: "What- are u serious?"

Alessia: "I'm actually serious, he was literally talking to her on the phone when we saw each other."

Desire: "omg."

Alessia: "it's a disaster.."

Desire: "Why is it a disaster?"

Alessia: "Because I have feelings for him!"

Desire: "I knew it, I knew you liked Shawn!"

Alessia: "Yes...I know u knew that I had feelings for him..it just makes me so upset that he's actually with her.."

Desire: "I'm so sorry.."

Alessia: "I'm never going to be with him..it's impossible.."

Desire: "Hey, don't say that..."

Alessia: "Don't u see? he's with Camila and he hasn't even left her..."

Desire: "you need give him sometime.."

Tears fell from my eyes.

Alessia: "there is no time...he's already with her..and I can't split them..."

Desire: "Hey, don't cry..."

Desire gave me a hug for me to cheer up.

Alessia: "me and Shawn got into an argument yesterday..."

Desire: "omg how did it happen?"

Alessia: "i met him on my way back home, we ran into each other..he wanted to talk about yesterday, but i didn't let him because there was no point since he was already dating someone, and he asked me why i ran off and i didn't tell him why and he kept asking and asking, so i got mad and we raised our voice at each other...i didn't expect to see him but it kind of surprised me.."

Desire: "wow I'm so sorry that happened.."

Alessia: "it doesn't matter now, he's with Camila..."

Desire: "it does matter, u have to tell him how u feel.."

Alessia: "I can't, it's too late...and besides, i don't even want to see him..".  

Desire: "but i don't want u to be sad forever..."

Alessia: "i know but it's not like he would care.."

Desire: "why wouldn't he?"

Alessia: "he has somebody."

Desire: "oh yea that's true, but trust me, everything will be okay.."

Alessia: "I hope you're right..."

Desire: "the next thing you know, he'll break up with camila and he'll say he loves u."

Alessia: "in my dreams..."

Desire: "no it's the truth, if he doesn't break up with her soon, then he must really like her but if he does, then that means he has feelings for u."

Alessia: "i like him so much."

Desire: "i know, he'll come around."

i spent my whole day hanging with Desire since she was the only one i felt like hanging out with at the moment and i felt better after that. 

A/N: End of chapter!