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Brinley and Hunters story continues!
More secrets, more lies and most importantly more love
This is the sequel to THE NEW BOY
If you haven't read that, I suggest reading it first otherwise this story won't make sense.
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Brinley's POV
I stare at the door hoping he'll come back in, I know he won't because I've just crushed him. I seen it in his face, I hate seeing him like that but I need to love myself again. People always say you can't love someone without loving yourself..I do love him but I'm just scared.
My face hurts along with my hip and wrist. My body is in agony.
"Hey" Lucas walks in holding a McDonald's bag. He places it on my lap and forces a smile.
"Thanks" i sigh.
I'm so hungry and tired.
Lucas sits down on the chair beside the bedside and he glances to the door, "Did you say something to Hunter?" He asks not meeting my eye.
"Why?" I hold my half eaten burger.
"Because he's out there, he couldn't even look at me..didn't even turn around. He told me to fuck off too but it didn't sound like him at all"
I sit up and head to the door with a slight limp, I open the door and close it behind me quietly. Hunter is starting down the empty hall with his back towards me, his fists are clenched as his head moves to look up at the ceiling with a shaky breath.
He sniffles quietly wiping his face with his inner elbow.
Is he crying?
I didn't want him to hurt like this, I never want him to hurt it will never be my intention.
He lets out another uneven breath as if he's trying to hold his emotions back and keep them in check. He slowly breathes shaking his head before I begin hearing his light sobs, like he's trying to hold it in.
I pad barefoot across the cold floor, I wrap my arms around his waist laying my head in his broad back. His hand covers his eyes before he lets out trembling breath.
"I can't do it, I can't be around for the kids.." his voice hoarse. His head drops and I feel a tear hit my hand.
He isn't going to be here for the kids?
"I can't act like I'm not completely in love with you for the rest of my life, I don't want to see you anymore.." he shakes his head keeping it hanging down.
"Brax or something will drop kids off to me now and then so I won't see you"
"No" I shake my head, he sighs.
"You can't do this to me Brinley, I know you don't love me..you look at me absolutely terrified, I get it..I really do but I can't be around you" he sniffles.
"Look at me" I loosen my grip around him.
"I can't look at you"
"Please.." I beg. I want to see his face, his perfect face.
"I can't, not when you look like that..it reminds me of...of everything that was my fault" he wipes his eyes again.
I walk around his body while my arms stay wrapped around his muscly torso.
He looks up refusing to look at me before clamping his eyes shut.
"Hunter" my eyes begin to sting. It hurts that he won't look at me.
The tears still run down his cheek but he wipes them before they drop, "I don't want pity" he clenches his jaw.
"Look at me" i place both hands on the side of his face forcing him to look at me. He opens them but his eyes don't meet mine as he looks past me.
"Hunter..look at me" my lip trembles.
He looks down into my eyes, his eyes glossy bloodshot red. They hold so much sadness and I hate seeing it. I want to spread love but I want to have it first, I want to love myself which I haven't in a long, long time.
"I love you Hunter, I really do. But I just can't" I tilt my head staring into his sorrowful eyes. I slide my thumbs back and forth along his cheekbones wiping away the tears that continue to slowly fall.
His hand reaches up, I thought he would remove my hands but he doesn't he holds it in place leaning into my left hand further.
"If you love me..be with me" he bites on his bottom lip saving it from trembling.
"I can't"
"Why? I know you're scared but I'll protect you from everything, i promise baby. I can't live without you and if I have too I will for Elle and the baby, I can give you time if that's what you need, I'll wait"
I drop my right hand unable to drop my left because he's holding it in place.
"Hello lovebirds" Brax says chipper walking towards us up the empty hall, he's in a blue suit with a briefcase in his hand.
We don't say a word or move a muscle, "Fuck off Brax, give us a minute" Hunter finally says husky staring at me.
Brax leaves us in the hall and goes into my room.
"I love you, Brinley" he whispers.
"And I love you" I confess.
"Then be with me, I'll make you the happiest I swear! I'm really trying Brin..so fucking hard!" He stresses.
"I know" I pout and begin rubbing my thumb again.
"Give me another chance, please" his head leans on mine. "So much for giving up huh" he snorts placing his hands on my face.
"I'm scared.." I close my eyes.
"Me too, only because I'm so unbelievably terrified of losing you. No one will hurt you I'll make sure of it"
I nibble on the inside of my cheek. This has happened before, I needed to love myself again in high school so I broke up with him, but I always end up right behind him willingly giving my heart to him. It's a cycle but I'd be lying if i said I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him.
"I love you" his lips inching closer to mine.
"I love you" I lick my lips, wetting the sudden dryness
"Will you take me back?" He whispers.
"Yes" I whisper back slowly nodding and I open my eyes looking back into his eyes. His lips curl up showing his white teeth.
"I want to take it slow, do it right for once?" I request.
