𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 ➵ 𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐄

xviii. eighteen

DIFFERENCE!

note: it's october in this timeline, i keep jumping months like a thousand different times. sorry.

eddie kaspbrak

andrew and i were back at my house, listening to vinyls per usual. he decided on AM by arctic monkeys. i wasn't really paying much attention to andrew and whatever he was doing, considering i was busy cloud watching through my window. mostly for the fact that richie was in his room. he was strumming on a guitar with his glasses on, wearing a hawaiian shirt. the losers said he used to wear them in middle school but subtly grew past them.

his window was closed like mine, so i couldn't hear what he was playing. i did see him stare up occasionally to see me. after what andrew told me last night, i tried my hardest to not communicate with richie. but looking through my window wasn't communication, right?

"eddie, come look!" andrew said cheerfully.

i ripped my hands off the window sill and plopped down onto my bed. he showed me something ally and kristi had sent him. it was for me, a message of them saying how much they missed me and really wanted to see each other again soon.

"that's so sweet!" i exclaimed. i smiled to myself.

"we all miss you in chicago. i wish i could bring you back with me." andrew admitted. was he blushing?

"as much as i want to go back with you, i would be lost without everyone here." i said.

"hey, let's not talk about them right now. let's focus on us." andrew said, taking my hand with his.

"what are you doing?" i laughed.

"what do you mean? this is normal eddie." he said, smiling like a fool.

not for me, what was this feeling?

"are you planning something, andrew?" i asked.

"this isn't planned. it's something i should've done sooner." he said, breaking eye contact with me.

i looked at him, making sure he was alright.

"andrew, is everything alright?"

he replied with something to my surprise; a kiss. i know i tried to kiss him on halloween. maybe this was a sign, that he knew what i was trying to do? was he nervous back then or was he confused? what was the change in interest?

it was a short yet sweet kiss we shared. intimate and passionate as well. that was my first guy kiss. i didn't know what i feeling at that moment. there's something i was feeling.

"eddie.. you're not saying anything." andrew said.

i was ready for round two. i grabbed both sides of his face and kissed him again. my stomach erupted when i insinuated the kiss. it was something i never felt before. maybe my feelings for richie were infatuation or jealousy from greta. but that didn't matter right now; i was kissing the boy i had crushed on for almost my whole life.

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