Make It A Sweet, Sweet Goodbye

Epilogue

Love. Love is a word that is misused by almost everybody. People say "I love you" just to show someone they care, but it means so much more than just caring about someone. Love means letting a person into your heart. Love means staying with someone through the best times and the worst times; not throwing away your care for someone when times get a little rough. Love means being patient, kind, and trustworthy. Love means being yourself, not being what people want you to be. 

I love my family. They have cared for me when I was sick, held me when I cried, laughed with me when I laughed. They have been with me through everything, and the word love isn't strong enough to express my feelings for them. 

I love Audrey. Audrey has been my best friend for as long as I can remember. She is basically like family to me, but I love her in a different way than I love my family. I love her for her funny jokes, and outgoing personality. I love her for her wild side, and her caring side; for her funny faces and heartfelt words. I love Audrey because she is Audrey. 

I love my friends. Jack, Rian, Jake, Grieco, Flyzik, Vinny, and everyone else I have toured with. They have become a second family to me, taking me in and replacing the family back in Utah. 

I love Zack. I will always love Zack. But the love I have for Zack is not the same love I had for him last year. I love Zack for caring for me, and for showing me a different side of life. The way I love Zack is the way I would love a friend, and that love will never be what it used to be. 

Finally, I Love Alex. I have always loved Alex, but I have always been too afraid to admit it. My heart ached for Alex when we were apart, but I would not let my mind acknowledge that. I would push my feelings away because I thought they would disappear if I didn't acknowledge them. But, of course, that is a lie. When Alex kissed me at the venue that night, all of those feelings I pushed deep down in me resurfaced, and I realized that no matter what I did, my love for Alex would never go away. The best part of the love I have for Alex, though, is knowing that he loves me in the same way. 

Alex and I are both on separate tours, on separate sides of the country, and eventually will be on separate sides of the planet. But our love will not be any different when we are that far apart, because we will not let our love fall apart. When you love someone like Alex and I love each other, you go to the end of the world and back for them. You would give your life for them, and that is what we would do for each other. Alex has changed my life for the better, and I have done the same for him. 

Over the last year and a half, my live has done a complete 180. I went from a small town girl to an international singer. I have met the man of my dreams, pushed him away, then brought him back to me. But most importantly, I have learned who I really am. I have learned to be myself, to love unconditionally, and to appreciate everything and everyone that is brought into my life. You will say a million goodbye's in your lifetime, but if you play your cards right, and show how much you care, those sweet goodbye's will never be for good, but instead just for a short time.