Journal (Calum Hood)

Entry 12 (Stephanie)// Part 2

Entry 12 (Stephanie)

"Hey, babe, I'm just going to get some breakfast. I'll be right back." Calum tells me and kisses my forehead before leaving.

Luke, Luna, Michael, Izzy, Ashton, and Avery are still left in the room. Avery has my left hand in a right grip and she's talking to me.

"I talked to my parents last night. They kept telling me that I need to go to college, and I will, I just want a year off." At that time, I feel myself becoming more aware of the safe around me. I'm getting feeling in my legs, my whole arm, my torso. Usually I can hear what they're saying, and that's it. But now, my body feels like my hands.

I snatch my hands out of Avery's and lay them at my waist. I bend my arm at the elbow and that grabs their attention.

Am I waking up?

No, not now! Not without Calum! Can't I want five more minutes until he gets back?!

"What's going on?" Ashton panics.

"I don't know! Is she waking up?!" Izzy answers.

"I'll get a doctor." Michael says and dashes out of the room.

"Someone call Calum!" Luke says.

"I got it!" Izzy says and seconds later, she's talking again. "Calum, get here, right now!" Then she's done.

"I got two!" Michael comes back and I hear two more voices I don't recognize.

"Stephanie, honey, don't freak out. Just stay calm." A soothing female voice reassures me.

I hear a door open and I relax when Michael says it's Calum.

"Thank God you're here, Cal." He says.

"Why? Am I right? Is she waking up? What's going on?" Calum asks.

"We're not entirely sure, but we believe so, yes." A doctor answers. My heart leaps at that answer.

"God, I'm so anxious! I want my Stephanie back!" Luna says excitedly.

I want you back, too, Luna. I miss you.

"Me too!" Luke says.

"Steph, if you can hear me, just know that it's okay to wake you. You're in good hands. We love you." Calum tells me.

I love you guys, too.

Seconds later, my eyes finally open. The first thing I see is Calum, and his smiling, bright face that I've missed so much.

"Stephanie!" Avery yells and hugs me. I take my concretion off of Cal and laugh.

"Okay, okay, guys, let me sit up." I say. I sit up and look at Calum. I smile.

"Hi." I whisper.

"Hi." He tackles me in a hug. "God, I've missed you so much!" He kisses my cheek.

"I've missed you too! I've missed all of you!" I let go - Unfortunately, I was enjoying his warm embrace - of him and face everyone else.

"Stephanie, I know you're excited, but please lie back down. We have to unhook you from a few things." The doctor says and I lie down. I have the biggest smile on my face as the nurse unhooks some things.

"Okay, Stephanie, do you think you're okay to go out? Are you still suicidal or have you improved?" The doctor asks her. I look at Calum to make my decision. I heard how hurt he was, I heard him cry, I hurt my friends, and I don't want to ever see that again.

Also, if I die next time, imagine they're pain then. I'd shatter them.

They care for me, they love me, and so far, I'm going a good ass job without my father. I have them.