Journal (Calum Hood)

Entry 21 (Calum)

Entry 21 (Calum)

After the talk I had with the guys yesterday about the incident with Stephanie, I have been impatiently awaiting for my phone to start ringing and my Caller ID to say Stephanie. The boys promised that she'd call today, but they're in no control of what she does, so she might not.

"Ugh, guys, when is she gonna call?" I ask them, plopping down on my couch next to Michael.

"Dude, it's only nine in the morning. She might not even be awake. I'm surprised we're awake." Michael says.

"I'm not, since Calum can't stop freaking out about it." Ashton says.

"How's your girlfriend, Ash? Or have you still not grown the balls to ask her out yet?" I ask him.

"Fuck off." He glares at me.

"Look, I'm sorry I'm such a wreck. But I seriously love this girl, and this is our first fight."

"Plus, she used to be suicidal. And she has a bat shit crazy father." Luke mentions, and I glare at him.

"You're not helping." I tell him. He puts his hands up, as if to say, Sorry, bud.

"Look, I'm sure she'll call soon. Luna told Michael she told Steph to call you today. Okay? Just be patient." Ashton assures me.

"Okay, and I'm sorry I'm a sassy piece of shit." (a/n: my apologies 100% of the time)

"It's alright, even though your sassiness can sometimes be fucking annoying at times."

My phone starts ringing and I run to see who it is. Fortunately, it's Stephanie, or else that running would have been pointless. "Shit, it's Steph. What do I do?"

"Here's a bright idea. How about you answer it?" Michael says.

"And say what?"

"Start with 'hello'."

"I'm not the only sassy one here." I say before answering my phone. "Hello?"

"Cal, hey."

"Hi."

"Um, would you mind coming up to my apartment? I have some things to say." Steph asks, and I think she sounds nervous.

"Yeah, yeah, of course. I'll be right there." I say and Stephanie hangs up. "Alright, I'll be back. Don't burn the house down or break anything. Goodbye." I tell the boys and then leave my apartment.

Within about a minute, I'm in front of Stephanie's apartment. I knock on the door, and she answers it in moments. "Hi, Cal."

"Hello." I say.

"Come on in." She says and I step into the apartment. "Guide yourself to my bedroom. I'll get there in a few seconds." I obey and I walk into Stephanie's bedroom. After about two minutes, she joins me, bringing in two cups of tea. "We would be talking in the living room, but Luna is here, and I don't get to interrupt."

"Okay, thanks for the tea."

"Sure. Okay, I'll get to the point. I'm sorry I yelled at you yesterday. I was just scared because of my father and I immediately jumped to conclusions and assumed you didn't care that I was scared."

"I do care that you scared, and I was just trying to tell you that you shouldn't be."

"I know that, now. It took Luna to get into my brain for me to realize that. Please forgive me."

"I could never say no to you." I say and lightly kiss her. "So, are you still scared?"

"No, and that is because I called you today."

"Today? Why today?"

"Well, I would have called you yesterday, but Luna insisted that I needed time to calm myself down so that I would no longer be scared. She said that it wasn't healthy to have 'what if' questions in my head like that. So, she made me wait until today to call you, claiming that I need to focus on myself. I would have still been scared if I called you yesterday."

"Well, I'm happy you're taking care of yourself."

Which isn't a lie, I just wish Luna told me so that I didn't worry all fucking day, thinking that Steph would never call me.

"Me too. It feels good."

"What, taking care of yourself?"

"Yeah, it's refreshing."

"Well, you haven't taken care of yourself in a long time. You're due to feel refreshed."

"I thought so, too. And apparently so did Luna."

"She's always been smart." I say.

"You're right, she has."

And the last thing I heard Stephanie say before she feel asleep in my arms.

A/N: this was a good chapter, and I think it took me like twenty minutes.

Ew it's snowing.

UPDATE! I seriously need to practice my violin more, so IMMA GO DO THAT.

Hope you enjoyed! See you next update!

Bailey xx