𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐀 𝐁𝐢𝐠 𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 (𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒀𝒐𝒖)

Chapter Eleven: Out of Town

Lexa's lips are nearly touching mine, our breaths mingle together as she pulls me closer by my neck, butterflies go off in my stomach as out lips brunch one another...

BANG!

We jump apart quickly in shock, we could hear Raven and Bellamy yelling at each other down stairs but our eyes never leave each other's.

We both wonder what just happened, just staring at each other in disbelief before I cough awkwardly and slip off of the bed, i look away from her and leave the room stunned.

I had nearly kissed my best friend, she had nearly kissed me, it seemed like she wanted it too though, what the fuck am I supposed to do now?

The rest of the weekend at Jasper's was....Strange to say the least. The group had been trying to push us together and Lexa didn't seem to mind, it was like we where attached to the others hip again, we would share secret smirks, soft touches and catch the other staring. The strangest part though was when we would go to bed, Lexa would gather me in her arms and spoon me either running her hands up my back or through my hair until I fell asleep and I never had a nightmare when i was with her.

We didn't talk about the almost kiss or the touches or the cuddling, it's not like we pretend it didn't happen, hell, just being around her makes me feel alive, but I don't think either of us actually had the guts to bring it up.

"Earth to Clarke!" Octavia waves her hand infront if my face as I stare at Lexa from where i was sitting on my kitchen counter two weeks after our weekend at Jasper's.

Shaking myself out if my thoughts i look back to a smirking Octavia and Raven, I roll my eyes, I've known these two long enough to know whats going to happen now.

"Sooooo, you and Lexa has seemed cozy lately" Octavia says as she sits on the counter across from me, Raven just leans against it.

I take a sip of my Coke, I had been trying to cut back on the drinks and smoking after Lexa yelled at me when Raven had told her I smoke and get waisted every night, by the end of her telling me off she had tears marking her cheeks and I hated myself for causing her pain so I cut back, it's only been two weeks but it's a start.

"I don't know what your talking about" i deny it, not looking at them, instead looking out the window into the backyard.

Raven snorts, "I call bullshit. You two are literally attached at the hip every minute of everyday. I've seen those little smiles you send at each other, those soft touches when you are close. Don't try to lie to us Clarkey"

I sigh, I usually didn't give in so easily but for once i needed someone to talk to about this because I had no idea what the fuck i was doing.

"We nearly kissed" I tell them, Raven and Octavia grin wide, "At Jasper's house but then there was a bang so we jumped apart and we haven't talked about it and i don't know what to do"

"Well do you like her?" Raven asks, i press my lips firmly together.

"How can I like someone when I haven't seen them in twelve years and ignored them for a month?"

"You can like whoever the hell you want Clarke, it doesn't matter how long you've been apart or how long you've known each other, if you like someone when you like them and no one else gets to stay differently" Octavia tells me, i think on it for a minute before letting out a sigh and nodding.

"Yea, I like her" i near whisper, Raven squeezes my knee while Octavia beams.

"Ok then, tell her before it's too late because Costia Grey has been after her for a year and when you hang out at school she gives you the dirtiest if looks" Raven tells me.

Costia Grey was a real bitch, I'd known her my whole life since she was put in the foster system too and she was adopted when she was 4, we used to be friends in Arkadia but when we hit the last year of high school she got me drunk and sleped with me, she then blamed me for raping her and ever since she's been trying to make my life absolute hell.

"Yea I know, I just don't know how" i mumble, i was never like this, i was never nervous, but Lexa does something to me that makes me vulnerable with her, that makes me feel so uniquely alive it's like I had only just saw colours.

"That, my gorgeous, I can't tell you what to do, it has to be your idea and your plan, just make it so uniquely Clarke" Raven tells me before walking away.

Two hours later I walk down the stairs with a bag on my back, I had already put everything i needed in my other car, a black Ford, and all I needed now was Lexa, I had sent Anya home before to get Lexa clothes without her knowing and they where already packed in the car, it was only four fifteen pm so if we left now we'd make it to the destination i picked out in three hours.

"Lex, I'm borrowing you for a while, so let's go" i tell her as I pull her off the couch, she looks at me questioningly.

"What, why, i thought we were all staying here to watch a movie?" She asks confused.

"Nope, you and Clarke have somewhere to be so get out of here" Anya throws popcorn at us, Lexa nods slowly still confused as we walk to the door.

"Where are we going Clarke?" Lexa asks when I drive away from my street.

"You'll see in three hours, get comfortable" I tell her with a smirk.

"Do you always do this, just drag people and go to any random place?" Lexa chuckles.

"Yea, whenever I feel sad or angry or any negative emotion i get in my car and drive, get a train or even go on a plane somewhere at completely random times to completely random places. I've never taken anyone with me though, of course my friends have asked to come but the whole reason i go is to get away and figure something out alone. But where I'm taking you isn't random, it has meaning to me and it's special, I've never taken anyone here or never told them about it" I tell her, Lexa looks over at me with one of those smiles that melt my tough exterior, hell, all her smiles melt my tough exterior.

"Well I'm glad your taking me" she tells me softly and rests her hand on my thigh as i pull onto the highway,we turn on music and sing our hearts out the rest of the drive.