𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐀 𝐁𝐢𝐠 𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 (𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒀𝒐𝒖)

Chapter Sixteen: Sister Needs Sister

Back to Clarke's Pov

When I was little I was terribly afraid of heights, every time Lexa would try to take me up to the tree house in their backyard I'd flat our refuse and when I did go up I'd cry when I had to get down, too afraid of how far the ground was to me.

I was like this until one day Gustus, Lexa father, took me into the forest during a vacation, he walked for a while in silence as I followed, holding his hand before he abruptly stoped and layed on the grass, he motioned for me to follow so I did.

It was dark out, the stars shining bright and the moon provided us light, I remember vividly how beautiful the sky was and I remember how he got me over the fear of heights.

He said, "Your not afraid of heights Clarke. Your afraid of the fall, your afraid then once you go too high the branch will snap and you'll be pulled back into reality. You have to understand Clarke, that yes, there will be a fall, there's always going to be a fall, but you also have to understand that there will be people on the ground to catch you when it happens. You just have to make sure it's the right people who help you climb higher and catch you when you fall and not dragging you down with them"

I was young then, I didn't understand how meaningful it truly was until years later but nether the less when we went back home I walked to the tree out the back confidentiality, no one came with me incase I fell and I wanted it that way, so I climbed, I climbed all the way to the tree house and made it in then came back down, that's when Gustus came out.

"I thought I told you to have people to catch you" he had told me, I was safely on the ground then before he picked me up and carried me into the kitchen and told Indra what happened, Lexa smiled proudly at me while Indra look worried, she asked why I did it and my reply made them cry that night.

"I know, but sometimes, there won't be anyone to catch me, so when their not there, I have to learn to catch myself"

Ever since that day I loved climbing the trees, scaling cliffs and going skydiving because, yes, there are times when no one's there to catch me, physically and mentally, but that day I had proven to myself and to everyone else I could catch myself when I fell and that I would fight and get back up and climb higher.

As I grew older and made friends, family, I felt as if I had started to fly but there where times my wings brake, this was one of those times.

Raven, my best friend and sister since thirteen was sitting in a hospital bed with tubes coming out of her and we had no guarantee that she would ever be able to walk again.

Lexa and the others had tried to pry me away from her, to get me to eat or go home and sleep but I wouldn't leave Raven, I wouldn't let go of her hand because I won't let her fall, I'll be right here to catch her like she's caught me so many times.

I come back into conscious as someones finders thread through my hair, my arms dead from where my head rests on it as my other hand holds Raven's, I can't find the energy in me to open my eyes to I just sigh contently at the hands playing with my hair.

"She hasn't left your side for three days. Only going to go to the bathroom and we've had to force feed her" I hear someone whisper quietly, I recognise the voice as Octavia's, she's speaking quietly clearly hoping to not wake me up since I hadn't slept much.

I hear a faint chuckle, "Yea she's always been like that, when one of us is hurt she's super protective, more then usual. Especially with Raven, the two have known each other since they where thirteen" I hear another add, Bellamy.

"Yea well, that's Clarke for ya. As stubborn as a mule" I hear another mumble, Raven.

Raven!

My head shoots up as my electric blue eyes lock with a pair of chocolate brown, tears enter my eyes when I see Raven smile at me and her hand moves from where it was playing with my hair to hold my cheek.

"Hey Clarkey" she whispers, I climb into bed beside her, mindful of her wounds, I cuddle into her side as her arms around around me tightly.

"Birdie..." I whisper, I'd always called her Birdy when I was sad, the first time I said it my foster sister had pushed me through a window and Raven saw, she beat the shit out of Leanna, the foster sister, before she took me to hospital, I was 14.

"Shhh Little Bird, it's ok, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere little sis" Raven reassures me as I start to sob, the other leave the room, giving me and Raven our space.

"I..I thought I lost you Bird....I thought you where gone" I sob, Raven maneuvers around until she can wrap both arms around me.

"Shhh Little One, I'm not going anywhere, I'm right here ok? I'm here, I'm safe" she quietens me, I feel my eye lids grow heavy, three days if four hours sleep tops was cat hing up to me.

"I love you Birdy" I mumble as im half conscious, I head Raven yawn as she whispers back.

"I love you too Little Bird"