𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐀 𝐁𝐢𝐠 𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 (𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒀𝒐𝒖)

Chapter Fourteen: Costia Grey

(Costia Grey- Picture Above)

Lexa and I had been together for a month now but Costia couldn't seem to grasp that we're together.

"Seriously, Clarke's a player, she will break your heart!" Costia spat as she looked between Lexa and I.

I roll my eyes as Lexa squeezes my hand, she was used to people telling her this but she knows she's it for me and I'm trying to change my ways, I was officially cigarette free for a month and three weeks clean of alcohol.

"Costia, we've had this fucking conversation a hundred times. Get over it" I tell her coldly, we where at school in front of my locker at lunch and I was sick of having to have this argument with the bitch every day.

"Ugh" Costia eyes me up and down, "You know I can't believe I ever liked your fat ass" I flinch at that, Lexa growls for Costia to stop but she ignores her, "I mean, you call them curves but really your just as fat as a hippo"

"Shut up Cosria, Clarke's beautiful and if you think saying this about her will make me all of a sudden like you then your fucking deluded" Lexa tells her through clenched teeth.

Costia laughs and looks back at me, eyeing me up and down, "Don't worry, I'll have you some day Lexi, you won't have to be with this filth much longer" she starts to walk away but stop and look back with an evil smirk, "Cya Lexi. Bye rapist"

At that something in me snaps, I'm no longer holding Lexa's hand, no, my fist had just connected with Costia's jaw, sending her to the floor, I straddle her and keep punching her in the face before I feel strong arms wrap around me and pulling me off but I kick my feet out, kicking Costia in her face as I'm pulled away.

"Clarke! Clarke hey!" I feel someone cup my cheeks but I'm too focused on Costia to know who it is.

"You say your trying to change, to do better. That's a load of shit Clarke and you know it, your never going to change, your a drug addict and nothing can change that. You don't deserve Lexa" Costia tells me as she wipes away blood from her nose.

"Shut it Costia, your a fucking bitch who should burn in hell!" I hear someone yell at her, I'm brought out of my trance and realise it was Raven who yelled, she and Octavia are telling  Costia off while Bellamy holds me back, Lexa is infront of me trying to get my attention.

"Hey Clarke, hey baby, it's ok, let's just get out of here yeah?" Lexa asks me softly, I nod as I breathe heavily.

"I'm going to let you go now Clarke but your not gonna hurt anyone will you?" Bellamy says from behind me, I shake my head and he slowly let's me go.

Lexa grabs my hand and pulls me down the hall with her, I can still hear Octavia, Raven and Bellamy having a yelling match with Costia.

Lexa sits me in the passenger seat of my car and looks worriedly at me, "Where's your keys beautiful?" She asks, I pull them out of my back pocket and give them to her wordlessly, she gives me an appreciative smile and kisses my forehead before getting in the driver's seat and standing the car.

Lexa drives us to my place and stops out the front, the car ride was silent and I couldn't figure out if that was a good or bad thing but I couldn't focus on that now, Costa's words where ringing through my head and I know I shouldn't but it does affect me.

I hadn't realised Lexa had moved until she opened my door and offered me her hand.

"Come on beautiful girl, let's get you inside" She smiles at me softly, I numbly take her hand and let her lead me inside and into my room, she sits me down on the edge if my bed and kneels infront of me.

We're silent for a moment until a sob escapes my lips, my hand instantly shoots up to cover my mouth as I squeeze my eyes shut, Lexa's arms elope me, pulling me closer until I'm straddled in her lap with my head in the crook of her neck as she tries to calm me.

"It's ok Clarke, just let it out. It's ok, I'm here for you" she whispered into my hair, more sobs rack my body because I don't deserve her, she's too good for me.

We stay like that for a while, even after my sobs had stopped, which I'm surprised even happened, I hate showing emotions around people but I feel safe with Lexa, I know she won't judge me.

Just another thing I don't deserve from her.

I know I shouldn't, I know what Costia said was a lie, I'm not a drug addict and I'm not fat. I loved my body, I always have even with all my scars I was never afraid to show it off, but Costas words are stuck in my head and I can't help but doubt myself.

"Don't listen to her Clarke, your so incredibly beautiful and your not a drug addict. I'm so glad that your my girlfriend, I don't want anyone else, I only want you" Lexa whispers as she rocks us.

I had forgotten I was straddling her lap and pull away, I give her a slow and passionate kiss but when Lexa tries to deepen it I pull away, giving her a shy smile I climb into bed after taking off my shoes and jacket, Lexa follows suit and wraps her arms around my waist, pulling me closer.

We just lay there and listen to her each others breathing, staring into each others eyes and sharing kisses here and there for a while.,

Lexa and I haven't made love, and yes with her I'm saying made love because with Lexa I would never be just sex. We'd agreed to take it slow at at our own pace and it was working for us.

My phone ringing takes us our of our little bubble, huffing I reach over Lexa to my nightstand, she whines as I grab my phone.

"Oh hush baby, it's only Octavia, probably asking where we are" I give her a kiss and she smiles up at me as I answer the phone.

"Hey Tavia" I greet her as I run my fingers through Lexa's hair with a smile..

"Clarke! Get your ass to the OR now!" Octavia yells into the phone, my smile instany drops and I don't question her and start throwing on my shoes, handing a confused Lexa hers but she complies and puts them on.

"What's happened O" I as worriedly as I grab my keys from my night stand and race down the stairs, Lexa right behind me.

"Anya and Ravens been in an accident! Clarke, it's bad!" Octavia cried into the phone, my breath is knocked out of me, my big sister was in trouble.....