𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐀 𝐁𝐢𝐠 𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 (𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒀𝒐𝒖)

Chapter Fifteen: Won't Let Her Go Again

Lexa's Pov.
Suprise!

Clarkes frozen from where she's leaning above me, she has her phone to her ear and it's as if time has stood still, tears enter her eyes and all of a sudden she's racing around the room trying to find her shoes as she rambles nonsense before she throws her phone at me as we both slip on our shoes.

"Hello?" I ask into the phone as Clarke bolts out the door, I race after her as she fumbles around in the kitchen looking for something.

"Lexa?" Octavia, Clarke finds her keys and recess out the door, the look in her eyes is sheer panic, "Lexa you need to come here with Clarke, I'm at Polis Memorial Hospital, Raven and Anya's been in an accident and Ravens in really bad shape" Octavia sobs, I'm jumping in the car and my doors not even closed before Clarke's pulling out of the driveway.

"Ok O, we're on our way. We'll see you in a minute" I tell her as I panic and hang up the phone, my sister and her girlfriend, who just happens to be my girlfriends best friend, are in hospital.

I rest my hand on Clarke's thigh reassuringly, she places one hand over mine as she drives, the girl had already broken at least 4 road safety rules but man, she was one hell of a driver and would do anything for her friends.

She pulls into the underground car part twenty minutes later, which I find remarkable because her house is nearly a hour away from the hospital, but hey, it's Clarke Praimheda-Griffin, the girl could do anything.

I follow Clarke into the elevator and up to level six, as we walk into the waiting room we see Bellamy, Jasper, Monty, Octavia, Murphy, Lincoln and Anya with her right arm in a cast and cuts all over her face.

I instantly run to Anya and hug her as Octavia pulls Clarke into a hug.

"Are you ok?" I ask her, Anya nods but she has tears in her eyes, "What is it?" I ask, Anya shakes her head as a few tears escape and run down her cheeks.

"The car flipped onto the highway and nearly went off the edge.....Raven....
She's in really bad shape Lex. Her body was folded in on itself and her leg....Oh my god Lexa her leg...." Anya sobs, I pull her into a hug and try to calm her.

"Clarke, it's ok, she's gonna be ok" I hear Octavia tell Clarke from behind me after a moment, me and Anya seperate and I look over to see such a hear wrenching sight.

Clarke was curled in on herself on the floor as sobs rack her body, Octavia as holding her as Bellamy, Murphy, Jasper, Monty and Lincoln are close for support but not too close to crowd her.

I race over to Clarke and take her in my arms, hushing her as I rock her back and forth.

"I-I cant..loo....loose her...I can't!" She says between sobs, it breaks my heart to see her like this.

Clarke was always so strong and would look at the world head on but the second someone she loves is hurt something inside her breaks, it's always been like that, it's like a switch goes off in her head and something just snaps, causing her to crumble and fall. Her friends where her foundation, they where what's kept her alive all these years and without them she becomes vulnerable, mad and chaotic.

"It's ok baby...Ravens gonna be ok. She's strong, she's gonna be fine. We'll get through it all together" I whisper to her as she sobs, I lift my head to the roof to stop the tears in my eyes from escaping, seeing Clarke like this, so broken...so fragile, it pains me beyond repair.

I sat there with Clarke in my arms for another twenty minutes before she struggled for breath, desperately trying to get oxygen in her lungs.

"GET ME HER INHALER!!" I yell to Octavia who races to Clarke's bag in the floor and pulls it out, throwing it at me.

"Baby, here. It's ok, just take it" I soothe her as a tear escapes my eye, Clarke's lips wrap around the purple inhaler and I press the button, a minute later her breathing is easier and even, I hold her to me tightly.

If someone had told me that this is how our life's would have turned out like 12 years ago, that we'd be pulled apart, that Clarke would be abused beyond repair, that she would smoke, drink and do drugs and then when she meets me again she completely changes, she changes into someone who is capable of so much greatness only for her heart to be broken into a million pieces all over again, I would have called them crazy.

But sitting here now, with the weeping blind in my arms on the hospitals cold, hard floor as her best friend is in surgery after being in a car accident, the more I think about it the more I think that if someone told me this would all happen, I probably would have cried because deep down I knew....

I knew that one day Clarke would have been ripped from my arms and she would continue to suffer, and knowing I couldn't do anything about it breaks me.

I wonder how may nights she had screamed for my help, how many nights she fell asleep crying, how many nights she stayed up late and watched her door, how many nights she had to suffer at the hands of vile and disgusting people and how many nights she was without me....

4380

4380 nights she didn't have me to hold her, to protect her, to save her....

Here and now as I sit on the cold hospital floor with Clarke in my arms I vow to never leave her side again, that I may have not have been able to hold her then but I can now.

I love her.....

I love Clarke Arklynn Praimheda-Griffin and I'd be deemed if I let her go again.