Nocturnal

Chapter Thirty Four.

Chapter Thirty Four.

            Ben was really busy this week, he wouldn’t tell me with what but he assured me that it was just boring Alpha duties. I didn’t like to be alone so I would stay with Lilith and Gage or Iris and Ruckus or my rogues. Today I decided that my rogues were a way better idea, I missed just hanging out with them and even though Chuck had disappeared into thin air and no one would talk about him, we still found things to do and it sort of felt like old times.

            We were all sitting on the couch watching a movie that Kyla had found off of Netflix, they made sure that none of the movies involved babies, kidnapping, or miscarriages. I wanted to tell them I wasn’t fragile but I decided to let them baby me, they seemed to like it. Graham was doing everything possible to not have to talk to me or even come in contact with me. It kind of hurt, I missed him. But I ignored it and tried to focus on the movie, the looming date for my decision for Clayton was bugging me. I still didn’t know what to do about him, why couldn’t Ben just have given the punishment.

            “Everything okay?” Tatum asked me. I nodded and went to grab some popcorn.

            “Oh please, you look like something is bothering you. What’s up?” Jacob said, he was sitting next to me and he took the popcorn bowl away from me.

            “I’m just thinking about the punishment that I have to give Clayton,” I replied, Graham gave me a curios look but turned back to the movie.

            “Aren’t you going to kill him?” Jacob asked, I looked down at my hands and sighed.

            “It’s not that easy, I mean he’s my sire and he made me so no matter what we will always have a slight connection. If I kill him, how the hell do I know I’m not going to feel his pain? Plus, does he really deserve to die?” I said out loud. I couldn’t bring myself to think that Clayton deserved to die. I used to be a merciless killer and I prided myself in the fact that I changed.

            “Maybe you need to go see him to sort out how you feel,” Kyla suggested. I jumped out of my seat, if I could just go talk to him and see how horrible he really was maybe it would help my choice.

            “That’s a great idea I think―” I began but Graham cut me off.

            “You are not going anywhere,” he said, his voice was calm but his face held the expression of anger. His deep brown eyes held ferocity, I wasn’t used to this Graham. Graham was usually mellow and rarely got angry.

            “I’m going to the prison, cover for me will you,” I said, I turned to grab my shoes but Graham grabbed my arm.    

            “Do you have a death wish?” he asked me, I looked at him in surprise.

            “This will help make my decision. You don’t understand, none of you understand! Just cover for me with Ben, I’ll back in no time,” I said to Graham and then pulled on my shoes.

            “We aren’t going to lie to the Alpha for you,” Graham retorted.

            “Graham give it rest. We will cover you,” Tatum said, she looked exhausted and I had never seen that bone deep tiredness with Tatum, she was always energetic and happy.

            “Why does no one else care that she always puts herself in danger?” Graham said, no one answered and he stalked out of the room. I sighed and headed out the door and went straight to the prison. The guard let me through and I wondered up the stairs and to the prison door, a guard stood at the door and he swiped the card and then let me in. I pushed open the door and looked down the rows. Most of the cells were empty, I guess Ben had gotten rid of them while I was gone.