Oceans In My Mind

Embarrassing

I'm not usually one to be ashamed or embarrassed by my family. But good God when they do a thing like that its incredibly hard not to be embarrassed by them. Its incredibly hard not to constantly apologize for shit they do. Even if I did nothing wrong I still feel obligated to say sorry for them because I am the one that has to deal with the chaotic evil they leave behind. Its "not my fault" but it is because im the one that brought you to them. Im the one that lead you into that bit of my life and got you involved when you didn't need to be. Im the one who opened that can of worms and then sat back and had you watch it all fall down. I didn't try to hide this time and that was such an intimate moment that our relationship wasn't ready for. There was 0 purpose for all of it. And yet I was still there and did nothing to save you from the harm.