Until we finally meet~Jaden hossler

Chapter 19

                                                                                ~~~Jaden~~~         

I backed away from her and left the room making sure I closed the door behind me. Slowly walking towards my own, my mind wandering to places it never has before. Also scared to see how the guys would react, they were with me when I quit every step in the game. And now I have fallen back to the bottom of the staircase. I stop right outside of the door, taking a deep breath and closing my eyes, preparing myself for what's next. Inserting my key card and pushing the door a bare minimum. To my surprise the only people in here were my roommates whose eyes immediately fall on me.

Anthony came up to me and looked straight into my eyes, "Are you fucking serious right now?! You're high?!!" Not going to lie, the way he said it scared me, he hadn't been mad in so long, you could rarely if not ever see Ant mad. "Yeah and so what?! It's my life leave me alone." I spat, bad idea, fuck. "YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE RIGHT IT'S YOUR LIFE, GO FUCK IT UP IF YOU WANT TO! BUT DON'T COME TO ME WHEN IT JUST FALLS FALLS APART." he's right, and has all right to get mad, but screaming was a bit over the top, the other two were just looking at us in silence, shook my I add. I walked past him purposely bumping my shoulder with his. I packed up everything and left out a hoodie and some sweats for the bus trip tomorrow morning, tour is going to be long... And sharing a bed with Anthony won't be great tonight, not until he calms the fuck down.

Remember when I said I was sharing a bed with Anthony, yeah... I ended up sleeping in the bathtub....

With a lot of back pain, I got my stuff and went downstairs. Climbed inside the bus and sat in one of the middle rows on the window seat. Someone sat beside me, it was Cynthia, great... "About yesterday, I'm really sorry I didn't mean it, and please it stays between us." she said as calmly as she could, you see I knew it, she would regret it if we did do it. "Yeah don't worry, my lips are sealed." I smiled at her and looked out the window once again. Moments later I feel a head lay on my side, I chuckled to myself and put her head on my lap letting her to lay down and sleep better, after all she's just a child.                                      

                                                                       ~~~Magnolia~~~

I don't feel like seeing people, at all. Not Nat, not Gigi, not Tayler, Not Dixie, not anyone! I don't even want to see myself for fuck's sake, but I'm stuck with me! I wish I wasn't.

I haven't eaten anything in the last thirty six hours, and I'm not planning on eating anytime soon, like a hunger strike. People have blown up my phone to the point I had to turn it off. I need time to think and people need to understand that. Time, it's all I want, is it too much to ask? I want death upon me. I don't have anything to live for right now. I'm done. 

I found my stash last night and got high for the first time in so long, it felt so good, it felt right. Although smoking alone isn't fun. 

                                                                         ~~~Jaden~~~

We arrived to New York.

*internal sigh*

Here we go...

This time I'm sharing a room with, Noen, Chase and Payton, yeah the same people except for Anthony. Thank god... And nope, my moment is ruined by Anthony barging in the room, fucker takes me by the collar of my shirt and lifts me off the floor, I never knew he could do that.

"DID YOU FUCKING SLEEP WITH A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD?! AFTER WHAT HAPPENED WITH MAGNOLIA?! IS THAT WHY SHE'S NOT ANSWERING HER PHONE OR NOT EATING FOR THAT MATTER?!" He was mad mad, and what?! No I didn't sleep with a fifteen year old. And Magnolia not answering the phone or eating? Her not eating sounds way over the top, not answering her phone, yeah that sound more like her.

" I didn't sleep with Cynthia if that's what your asking and no I don't think I have anything to do with Magnolia's behavior, at least I don't think so." Jesus, could we civil no need to just grab me by the shirt.

"What do you mean Magnolia is not eating?" Asked Payton, since when does he care? What is he to her anyway?! What if they fucked? No mags wouldn't or would she I mean she slept with Anthony while we dated so you never know! Why am I like this?

"Imma tell Tayler to bring chick-fil-a, she can't say no to that..." What does Payton know, for heaven's sake. How do they even know this shit? How do they know more about her than I do? Why don't I know her? Do I?