Sequel to the books "shouldn't have~~Jaden Hossler" and "until we meet again ~~Jaden Hossler" by @marijwuana who now goes by @peachyyzi. So go reads those right now!
"Fine! if that's what you want." she said, finally looking at me. It was but it wasn't at the same time. Guilt had taken over, I left Madison today even after all she had done for me. I could have done something to avoid Magnolia's family's death, dammit i could have done so many things. Yet no, i was too busy doing nothing just thinking about Magnolia. I wonder how life would have been without her... What are you saying Jaden?!! Magnolia made me happy, she was there for me all the way, she cared for me! I don't even deserve her! That's it! I don't deserve her, she's too good, or am i just too bad? This is exactly what i'm talking about, I need time. Time to think, time to be a better person, the better version of me she deserves. She walked away after saying something else which i didn't listen to, I was left there alone with my thoughts once again. The ones who were interrupted by Chase telling us it was time to go to dinner.
"Payton is bringing Mags home and they won't be back for dinner..." said chase, what?! You know what, I'm tired of her going around with my friends, if she doesn't want us so bad and she wants to fuck them so bad, she can, that's what whores do! Oh. My. God. What has gotten into me?! I'm the one who told her i needed time. Why am I like this, I always do this and end up hurting people, among which, is me. My bipolar disorder is going to drive me astray one day. I can feel it. I hate myself, I push the best people away. I can't loose her. "JADEN COME ONNN" that was Cynthia, they were all already in the Ubers, i climb inside ready to go to dinner.
Once we get there, i immediately get jumped on by a fan, it made me feel special most of the time but it made me feel more guilty, it reminded me everytime Magnolia and i did it, the one time with Addison and when it was just Mads, or when we were just messing around and Mags jumped on me to surprise me or something. It's final, Magnolia is the one for me, but I'm not the one for her. Honestly I don't know why I'm overthinking, her and Payton are probably making out right now. What are you saying? Magnolia would never, and Payton is younger than her. We get our food and sit down, it's all chill until I get a text from Bryce. "Magnolia broke down in the middle of chick-fil-a because of you. Not good my guy, not good." Oh great he's with her too, who else Tayler, and let me guess that Mason dude too. Wait Mason as in Anthony's friend? Is that how he met her? I should have listened to my gut. I would have seen her earlier. But it would have ended the same way.
I decided to leave Bryce on read. Why? I wouldn't be able to answer that.
"what's on your mind my dude?" asked Chase, "Magnolia, she's with Payton and Bryce and I'm guessing Tayler too." I sounded pissed more than i wish I did. "wow there, chill, They're just friends." No shit, but so were we Chase and what happened? Yeah, we made out, dated and she even got pregnant with my child so here we are. "yeah, I know, just.. I'm gonna go to the bathroom." and with that I left them there. I washed my face, and when I looked up in the mirror all I saw was a bad person. Some times i wish i could turn my life around all the way. I need advice, I need someone i can talk to, normally I would have called Magnolia or even Mads maybe Addison but they are all involved, so who else other than the one and only... Madison beer.
~~~magnolia~~~
Natalia was setting everything on the tables, snacks i mean, so we could just lay down and watch Netflix. I'm just scrolling through some pics I took today to maybe post some. I didn't take one with Jaden... Well, forget the meet and greet. I'm gonna post one of the boys, one we took after eating.
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I turn off my phone not wanting to see anything anyone had to say about the situation, I'd check my dms after, after spending time with Natalia, after I calm down a bit. Nat turns our series on, the one we would always watch when we hung out, it was tradition at this point. We're just missing something, Emma. Before Gigi even came to LA, it was Natalia, Juliette, Emma and I. Then Juliette moved away to Colorado, leaving Emma, Natalia and I. Then Emma, she was the one you could come to for no matter what, if you were sad she would comfort you, if you were happy or excited she would be excited or happy for you and with you, she gave the best advice and would stand up for you whenever. But, every good thing comes to an end, after her mom had a miscarriage she starting abusing on alcohol and even drugs like my dad, she took an abusive behavior and would do horrible thing to both Emma and her little brother Cole. Once things got out of control and the police were called, Emma and Cole were taken away and given to a foster family, we haven't seen her in years. I really fucking miss her, we both do.
"Remember, when we would do sleepovers with Emma and watch this series... I miss her, how do you think she's doing?" I asked, I was actually curious, Natalia looks down at her hands and starts playing with her rings. "Um, I don't really know how to say this, Mags..." what.. what does she not know how to say? "While you were in a Coma, she, um.." she wasn't able to hold back tears, and neither was I at this point. "She what? Natalia, what happened to her, or what did she do?" She looks up at me, her eyes were puffy, her green eyes were glossy with tears and mascara was dripping down her cheeks, her nose was a light of red and I could only imagine what she was going through right now. "She took her own life Magnolia, she jumped off the balcony, and it was precisely the day I was coming to see her, tell her how much we missed her, how much we wanted her back, how you were doing!" that's when we both broke down in tears, if I wanted to cry before, now was.... all I could take.
