Green Hearts

Chapter 6

Half a century later

Who am I lying to, it's only been five days since I last talked to Jace and I just happen to be seeing him in every turn I make, making my life every bit harder

The worst part is that he isn't even avoiding me like I did to him, he's just living his life without me and it seems every bit disturbing and nerve racking to see him smiling with other people who I don't even know

I've been trying to blend back into my normal routine without him but it's not even that easy seeing him in my Econ class with his curly hair packed in a cute as fuck ponytail. Why in the devil should someone leave you and become hotter?

"You don't have to look so miserable like you broke up with your boyfriend cause he wasn't even yours in the first place" Muna says when she walks into the room to find me moping around in pyjamas and binge watching Marvel movies

"Thanks Captain obvious for pointing out what I didn't know" I roll my eyes, stretching from my sleeping position for a bottle of water on my reading table

"But how in the hell is that guy so hot" she falls exasperated on her bed. I shoot up on my bed and look at her in many weird ways. I have never heard her talk about any guy or even call them hot

"Do you like him?" I ask after searching and failing for logical explanations

"What? How?" She sits up abruptly to look me in the eyes, confused "How do you just decide that once I say what almost every girl is thinking"

I shrug, deciding to let go of my deduction of her sexual orientation

"I can't believe you just let him go like that. What happened to the strong best friend bond between y'all?" She stands to shrug off her jacket

"I apologized, what do you want me to do? Go back in time? Besides he's not my best friend, you are" I tease with a light flutter of my lashes and a fake smile. My eyes follow her movement all around the room as she fakes puking in her wardrobe

"I want you to apologize again and again" she says

"I've tried....that" I trail off

"Mhmm" she folds her arms and turns to face me "What exactly did you try?"

"Not looking in his direction" she groans and turns away from me again "Look, my pride is at stake here. He asked for space and I'm giving it"

"No, you asked for space and he is giving it to you" she counters

"He is really rude. He asked me to go bathe in the amount of space he's giving" I nearly tear my hair off my head in exasperation just at remembering the encounter

"He's rude, you have issues; perfect fit. Almost like I'm writing a book here. Work with me please" she settles at finally arranging her hideous wardrobe after staring at it for the past minute

"What do you want me to do?"

"Go to his room"

"I don't know it"

"Barge into his class"

"Don't know that either"

"Call him"

"I don't have his....number" she gives me a knowing look "Fine"

I pick up my phone with a lot of gusto but that ends up delegating when I look at his contact info

Deciding not to call him, I send him a simple text message 'Hey, can we talk?'

I stare pointedly at my phone, hoping that he usually replies quickly. I wouldn't know since this is the first time we would actually be texting each other

"You don't need to stare the phone into extinction" I look up to find her staring intently at me "Try having your bath today, help the air in the society"

"Oh yeah!" I jump from the bed to her, squeezing her head under my armpit "One less au parfum de reckette to be wasted"

"Get off me, you prune" she struggles to get out of my grip but I'm having none of that. My phone vibrates noisily on my bed indicating that a message has come in, I let go of Muna and dive towards my bed

'No' is all that Jace replies me

"You should be in diving competition for Olympics. Are you sure that you don't like this guy?" She says

"No, I don't" I snort before pressing my phone screen to her. She eyes me before moving my arm away from her face so she can actually read the screen

"He's still mad? What did you even do?" She rudely pushes my arm away from her

"He is still mad at me and has taken to looking hotter so that my life will never be complete again" I tease nervously, trying to turn her attention from her second question

"You're doing that thing" is all she comments while looking at me suspiciously

"What thing?" I ask, genuinely confused

"The thing where you only reply to one half of a statement for some weird reason" she gives me a bored look

"I don't know what you are talking about" I avert my eyes from hers and walk to my bed

"Sure, you don't. What did you do?" She reiterates

I busy myself flipping through assignments and projects that I had already done

"Talk to me" she says from behind me and I feel her hand of my shoulders

I sigh, knowing that I'll have to tell her about it sometime

"I had a flashback to the accident" I hang my head, burdened by the sudden turn my life has taken

"What?!" She exclaims and turns my body to face her. Her hands hold me at arm's length on my shoulder

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?!" She yells in my face. He palms now cup my cheeks and I can see every bit of worry that is etched on her face

"Because I was terrified. I was terrified the moment it happened so I yelled at Jace and it felt better to deny it happened afterwards" I feel my cheeks being damp and I wonder if it's Muna crying. Only when I feel my face, do I realise I'm the one crying

I've always avoided anything that has to do with my mother because it has been too much pain to handle. What happened that day came as a shock to me and I had lashed out my fear on Jace which I deeply regret

"Has that happened before?" She asks quietly. I sit on my bed and hold my head in my hands

"No, that was the first time" I reply

She sighs and sits beside me, pulling me into a hug "It's fine. You'll get through it, you're strong enough"

She rocks me as I sob silently in her shoulder