"What do you mean you're moving back?!" I ask frantically.
"We were only living here temporarily coz my parents got work here but we would eventually move back." he says.
"And you didn't tell me?!" I speak-shout.
"I'm sorry I wanted to tell you sooner I just didn't get around to it." he says softly.
I exhale deeply into the speaker. "When are you leaving?" I ask calming myself.
"Uhmm...."
"Just tell me Jesse!" I yell.
"End of term." he responds.
"END OF TERM?! THAT'S IN LIKE 3 WEEKS?!" I scream into the phone.
"Gray you okay?" asks my mom as she enters my room.
I put my hand over the speaker and turn to face her. "Yeah everything's fine." I say with a small smile.
"Alright." she replies with a smile before walking out of my room and closing my door. I then return to my call with Jesse.
"3 weeks. That's so soon." I complain.
"I know I know and again, I'm sorry for not telling you sooner. I swear I wanted to do it a while ago, I was even gonna tell you earlier today but I forgot." he says slightly whispering the last part.
"When will you come back?" I ask.
"Don't be mad but, maybe only in a few months, maybe years..." he says softly.
"WHAT?!?!?!" I scream. "So you're saying I won't see you for years?! What about us?" I continue yelling.
"I... I don't know. Please don't be mad." he pleads.
"I have to go." I say before I hang up.
My boyfriend is moving away thousands of kilometers and I won't be able to see him for months, maybe even years. Wow.
On that note I decide to take a long shower before getting into bed and falling asleep.
***
The next day I walk into my home room a few minutes after the bell rang. My friends aren't here. Fudge the bus for coming to school late. Also, Levona isn't here. Great.
I take my seat and take out my notepad and start writing things down. Whenever I feel sad or upset I like to express myself through poems or drawings. It's therapitic for me on a way. It helps.
A few moments later Jesse walks into the class with his hand rubbing the back of his neck.
"Morning Gray." he greets as he approaches me.
"Hi Jesse." I greet and look back at my notepad.
"You still mad?" he asks as he sits down.
"I just wish you had told me sooner. I only have 3 weeks left with you then I won't see you for a long time. What's gonna happen to us? Do we have a long distance relationship? Do we break up?" I start rambling, a tear slipping down my cheek.
"Hey, don't cry. We'll think of something. Something that works for both of us. And we will keep in contact." he says as he wipes the tear away.
"Do you think we should have a long distance relationship or should we break up?" I ask sadly. "I mean, do you think we'll be able to manage that, without any physical contact for months and months? Without seeing each other for what could be years?" I ask.
"I'm sure we can do it. You love me right?" he asks.
"More than you could ever imagine." I say with a slight smile.
"And I love you, more than the stars in the sky. As long as that love stays strong, we can do this." he says, comforting me slightly.
"I'm just scared I'm gonna lose you. I guess I just don't wanna get hurt again." I say. My eyes widening at what I just said. Dang it, can't believe that slipped.
"What do you mean get hurt again?" he asks, looking into my eyes.
"Nothing." I say and turn to my notepad.
"Gray." he states sternly. I surrender and turn back towards him.
"Ugh, fine. My last boyfriend moved to somewhere else in the country. One day I was scrolling through instagram and saw a picture of him kissing another girl. I got so mad and felt so hurt but I asked him why he did it and you know what he said? He said he lost interest in me coz he doesn't see me anymore. Do you know how much that hurts? I cried every night for a week. Over a pathetic slimeball. I just don't want that to happen again." I say before looking down, sadness overcoming me as the memories return to my mind.
"Gray, i'm so sorry that happened to you. I swear if I ever see this bitch I'll destroy his ass." he says angrily. "But I want you to know that I will never cheat on you, I'll never lose interest in you. I didn't start dating you only to cheat on you and end things. The end goal of this relationship is marriage, and hopefully we can achieve that one day. One day, but now I want to make you feel loved and know that you're loved." he says. His words causing me to shed a few tears.
"Hey Jesse?"
"Mmhmm?"
"I love you."
"I love you too Gray."
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