Made For Him

Chapter 19

Vanessa Jasmine's

After that confrontation, I just turn my back on him and leave him in the kitchen saying "Finish what I'm supposed to finished, Rio. Para bati na tayo. Or not."

I know, I know. Im childish but what am I supposed to do? Naiinis ako sakanya sa hindi malamang dahilan. Hapon na at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin siya pinapansin. And I can see that he is frustrated. But he's also persistent on making me talk to him.

"Come on, Sweetheart. What should I do? Wala naman akong maalalang ginawa sayo? Or maybe I have? But-but let me know, sweetie! I dont know what to do anymore!" Sabi niya sa harapan ko habang pinapasadahan ng kamay ang buhok nito.

Nanonood ako ng tv and he's blockint it right now. Naia's busy with her toys on the floor. At hindi ko alam kung saan galing ang mga laruang iyon.

"Are you shouting at me?" I questionned while looking at him. Nakatingala ako rito.

"No, no. Sweetheart, I'm asking. You see? You're ignoring me and I dont know why? Tell me, what did I do?" He slowly sat beside me.

"Should I ahm-say sorry? Or cooked for you? Sabihin mo na, Jasmine. Im getting frustrated." He looks cute with pleading eyes.

He seems different. Ibang-iba sa Rio na una kong nakilala. The Rio who's ruthless and violent. Now, he is sweet and caring and-and ...

Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakanya. Pinagpatuloy ko ang panonood ng Tv. Hindi naman talaga ako interesado sa pinapanood ko, Im thinking. Why is he different? Why is he like this? One second, he is mad, irritated and violent. Di ko alam kung ano ang dapat paniwalaan. Is he doing this to manipulate me? To stay with him longer? Is he doing this because he wants me to believe that he is good? Is this what Christopher is saying? That Rio is good despite his violent and ruthless action? Do I believe them?

Rinig ko ang pagbunting hininga ni Rio at pagdalampak ng likod nito sa sofa. I saw him starring at me in my peripheral vission.

"Ano?" Gigil kong tanong rito saka sinalubong ang tingin.

I stiff. Rio is staring at me softly. There's something on his eyes. As a nursing student, I somehow know how to read people. And he is restraining himself on something.

"Let's go have a picnic?" He softly asked me. I see desperation on his face.

"Picnic?!" Naia shouted. Gulat akong napatingin kay Naia.

Napatigil ito sa paglalaro at malaki ang matang nakatingin kay Rio. "Picnic, Tito?!"

Bumalik ang tingin ko kay Rio. He also looked at me pero saglit lang iyon at unti-unti ngumisi. "Yeah, we're going to have a picnic!"

Naia then stands up. Tumatalon ito habang sumisigaw. "Yes! I wav picnic a wat, Tata! Picnic, Tata! Picnic!" Ngunit sandali itong napatigil.

"On a park, Tito?" Naia asked again. Rio nodded at her still grinning. "Picnic on a park, Tata! Picnic on a park!"

Malaki ang matang bumalik ang tingin ko kay Rio. "Really? Hapon na, Rio!" She said.

Rio still grinning "And it's perfect, Baby!" Tumayo ito at kinarga si Naia.

"Dressed up, Seeetheart. You don't want Naia upset, Do you?" Tumatawang umakyat ito kasama si Naia.

Naiinis na hinabol ko ito ng tingin. "Arrrgghh" sabi ko saka tumayo at umakyat sa kwarto upang magbihis.

I'm wearing a flowy white dress and a white sandals. Wala akong nilagay na kahit ano sa mukha ko dahil wala namang polbo at liptint sa kwarting iyon. Sabagay, kwarto ni Rio iyo.

Tiningna ko ang sarili ko sa salamin. I can see a girl wearing her simplest dress. There's nothing to boast about herself. She's simple. Cup A and not a booty chick. She's an average kind of girl. I kept on asking myself "Bakit ako?". Also I want to ask Rio "Sa daming babae sa mundo, Bakit ako Rio?"

Nakikita ko ang mata kong unti-unti ng nagkakaroon ng kulay. Is it because of Rio? Natatawa kong tiningnan ang sarili ko.

"You're hopeless, Vanessa. You shouldn't be here." I said. But the woman on the mirror is persistent on something. Something I myself dont know. Nababaliw na ko.

Katok ang nagpagising sakin mula sa malalim na pag-iisip.

"Sweetheart? Are you okay? Ang tagal mo naman dyan." Rio asked.

Muli kong binalik ang tingin ko sa salamin. Seeing the my own eyes and reading them is ridiculous. I should not be happy.

"Andyan na." Kinuha ko ang bag ko at binuksan ang pinto.
Rio was fixing Naia's dress kaya't bahagya itong nakayuko rito. He is wearing a white shirt and a denim pants.

He looks handsome. Kahit anong bagay naman ata babagay sakanya. He looks like a model.

Nag-angat ito ng tingin sakanya. Pinasadahan siya nito ng tingin at ngumiti. I can feel my heart beating so fast. I hear it. Parang tumigil ang lahat sa ngiti niyang iyon.

A slight tug on my knees stop me on my imagination. "Tata! Naia's excited. I want to play na! I bet there's many kid on the park!" At mahina nitong hinila ang kamay ko.

Natatawang nagpahila ako rito. "Okay, okay. Dahan-dahan lang baka malaglag tayo sa hagdan." Sambit ko rito habng inaalalayan siyang bumaba ng hagdan.

Pagkarating namin roon ay bigla itong binuhat ni Rio. At ngayon ko lang napansin ang suot maming tatlo. Me and Naia is wearing a white dress!

Nanlalaki ang matang bumalik ang tingin ko kay Rio. "You planned this, aren't you?"

Rio look puzzled. "Huh?"

"This, Rio! Naia, You and I share the same color of dress!" I exclaimed.

Kita ko ang pagsiksik ni Naia sa leeg ni Rio. Binalewala ko iyon. Kunot ang noo ni Rio nang tanungin ako. "And what's the problem with that? Maybe a coincidence. Sweetheart-"

"We look like a family! I don't want this!" I shouted. Hindi ko alam kung anong meron. I started to feel different and I'm scared getting attached to him, to them.

Kita ko ang pagbabago ng expression nito. From being soft, nakikita ko ang Rio'ng una kong nakilala.

"Okay. Just do this for Naia, then. Naia wants to go picnic." Nagsimula na iting maglakad at nilampasan siya. Naia is still on his arms.

Lumingon ako rito. "R-rio, I-i shouldn't-" tumigil ito sa paglalakad at nagsalita.

"It's okay. Let's just get over this." He coldly say.

Nanghihinang napahawak ako sa railings ng hagdan. I've said enough. Dapat ay hindi ko na lang sinabi iyon. Napapikit ako at huminga ng malalim.

Babawi ako.

-Makahiyaya-

A/N
Stay safe everyone. Sorry for the long wait. Since, there is no classes baka madalas rin akong mag-update. But don't let your hopes up. Masakit umasa.

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