Made For Him

Chapter 35

Vanessa Jasmine's

Naghihinang napaupo ako. What does that mean? He told me he'll leave. Face to face while saying that I shall greet him and wait for him to comeback. Did he know? Did he hear us? Where is he then? Why is he not here? What's his plan?

Ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko habang patuloy na nakaupo habang nakatulala sa sahig. Should I wait for him? Find an answer then run? Should I tell him about...

An arm suddenly gently forced me to stand and drag me out of the room. Wala akong lakas na nagpakaladkad dito.

"Jamine! Wala na tayong oras! Any minute from now, he'll be here. He's not dumb, Jasmine. Alam natin kung anong kaya niyang gawin, not to me but to you! And you know that! So as long as I'm here I can protect you. We can arrange a lot of protection for you. So come on. Hurry!" Sabi niya habng dahan-dahan pa rin akong inaakay pababa ng hagdan.

Tears started to form in the corner of my eyes as I started to realize that I now have a chance to escape this hell. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ang bigat sa halip na dapat ay masaya ako? Bakit ang sakit sa halip na dapat ay pagluwag ng hininga ang dapat kong maramdaman?

Before I reached the last step, I forcefully grabbed back my hand from Chris 'causing for him to stop and stare at me. His gaze held confusion and empathy.

"M-maybe I should wait for him. He told me I should greet him when he comes back. I-I haven't told him a-about-" nangingig na nilagay ko ang kamay sa tiyan ko habang kagat ang mga labi. Mas lalong bumuhos ang mga luha ko at nagpakawala ng mumunting hikbi habang nakayuko.

Natatakot ako. What should I do without him? Where should I go? Ano na lang ang sasabihin ni mama? Will she accept me and my baby? Will he accept me and his child? Maybe we can help him? I can change him. Patuloy na dumadami ang tanong sa isip ko pero ni isa ay hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat na isagot.

I heard him gasp and curse. Rinig na rinig ko ang mabibigat niyang yabag na tila ba ay hindi na mapakali. "Fucking hell!" Napaigtad ako sa sigaw.

"L-let's wait for him, Chris. I know he will change. I should wait here, ask for an answer. Tutulungan ko siya. Alam kong kaya ko. We will have a family together. " mahina kong sinabi. I don't know kung narinig but his hands grab my shoulders so tight It made gasped from pain. Napatingin ako sakanya.

"Jasmine, hindi mo ba naririnig ang sarili mo? It's your stockholm syndrome talking! Hindi mo ba naririnig na all you want is him when in the first place he drag you here without your consent! He forced you! He abused you! Now, h-he..." I can the pain and tears in his eyes. "He impregnated you! He is not on his right mind, Jasmine. Hinding hindi ka niya kayang subaybayan sa ganitong sitwasyon ninyo. He unstable. He can be a reason for you to lose your child. If you want to have a good life and leave without pain, we need to leave now. The authorities are coming, I called them. We can entrust his welfare to them. You and your child should be our priority now. He can't do anything for you-" parehas kaming napatigil when we heard a sound coming from the kitchen. Parehas kaming napatingin doon.

Napakadilim ng bahay dahil sa lakas ng ulan at kulog. But there he is. Standing so strong, his silhoutte shouts authority and superiority. His hands are crossed while leaning on the door frame of the kitchen.

"You're hurting her, Chris. Let her go." He said with a stone voice. Napakalamig at diin ng boses nito. His voice sent shivers on my skin. I miss him, I miss his voice.

"Rio..." Chris said and sighed. Binitawan ni Chris ang pagkakahawak sa balikat ko at kita ko ang panandaliang pagdaan ng takot sa mga mata nito habang sumusulyap saakin. He composed himself and went down the stairs.