Unang Kabanata
"Hindi pa ba sapat
Nu'ng binigay ko ang lahat?"
Portia's POV
Minsan, hindi ko alam kung bakit kailangan pang masaktan kapag umiibig. Oo, parte nga ito ng umiibig but sometimes the pain is just too much to handle. Ang OA nung sakit. Pero mas OA yung dahilan kung bakit ako nasasaktan.
"Portia, bakit ka nandito?"
"Uy, Steven. Wala naman, gusto ko lang mapag-isa."
"Your eyes, Portia. Your eyes. Magdi-dilim na, nandito ka pa. It isn't safe here."
"Heto kasi yung paborito naming lugar ni Apollo. Dito rin kami huling nagkita, nagkausap, at nagkayakapan."
"So this is the place where you had a closure?"
"Not really, Steven. Para sa akin, hindi iyon closure kasi siya lang naman yung may gustong umalis. That was unfair."
"Would you mind if I ask kung bakit daw?"
Portia, mahirap man pero kailangan na nating maghiwalay.
Wait, what? What are you talking about?
Portia, hindi na tayo healthy para sa isa't isa. I can see that you're being dependent to me already. Lahat ng desisyon at nangyayari sa buhay mo, parang sa akin na nakadepende. This relationship is becoming toxic already at ayokong dumating sa puntong mawala mo yang sarili mo.
Apollo, I love you. You know that. Kung ganun yung nakikita mo, kaya naman nating itama yun. Kaya kong itama yun. I'm sorry if i'm becoming dependent to you. Hindi ko naman ginusto yun. It's just that i'm too comfortable to you kaya ipinagkakatiwala ko ang lahat sayo. But please, leaving isn't the answer.
We're old enough, Portia to know what's right and wrong. I always remind you of everything, kung ano yung hindi na maganda at hindi na tama but nothing changes. It becomes worse each and everyday. It sucks, to be exact.
Are you sure, Apollo? Or baka nga tama yung rumors about you. Na you're secretly dating someone. Quinitina Olivar, am I right? We're old enough, Apollo. We're old enough to leave someone we love para lang sa temporary happiness.
Quintina Olivar is just a friend of mine. Enough with that kind of attitude, Portia. Tamang hinala, selosa, a girl full of insecurities. Tatlong taon na tayong magkasama pero lagi pa rin ganyan? Well, Quintina. She's beautiful, sexy, nice, and badass. Hindi boring, hindi tulad mo.
"What the hell! Sorry to say pero are you really sure na you will waste a drum of tears for that jerk? Portia, maganda ka, matalino, mabait, talented, at hindi maipagkakailang you have the body. Tapos iiyakan mo yung gago na yun? Not being bolero but you deserve more than him. I don't even know if he's a man with balls. Putcha, pagsasawaan niya lang yung ibang babae dahil hindi mo maibigay sakanya yung gusto niya. And I admire you for being that kind of girl. You're really smart. Tama lang yun. Sana last na iyak mo na yan dahil sa mokong na yun."
"Thanks, Steven. Alam kong may mali ako but thinking about our memories these past few days, I've done so much for him. Hindi ako nagkulang. Sumobra nga to be exact kaya ganun siguro. Ibinigay ko lang naman kung anong kaya kong ibigay. Wala naman akong magagawa kung sa ibang babae niya mahahanap yung saya na gusto niya." Niyakap ni Steven nang mahigpit si Portia.
Oh, I love that hug. Ang higpit, ang sincere.
"I hope, nakatulong. Hindi naman kasi ako expert sa love. Ang alam ko lang is makinig at tumabi sa taong gusto ng karamay."
"Maraming salamat, Steven. Iba ka talaga, kababatang malakas ang tama."
"Hay nako. Mapang-inis ka pa rin, Portia. Hatid na nga kita pauwi at maggagabi na. Baka hinahanap ka na sainyo."
Steven's POV
While walking alone, may nakita ako sa park na isang babaeng tila umiiyak.
Is that Portia?
Alright. Si Portia nga. Kababata ko na matagal ko na ring gusto but I never had the chance to confess my feelings to her kasi nung maglalakas loob na kong umamin sakanya, biglang sumingit sa frame si Apollo.
Sa totoo lang, walang special kay Apollo. Actually, ang pangit ng image niya sa ibang tao. Playboy daw kasi dati. Yun ang sabi.
Pero teka bakit nga ba umiiyak si Portia?
"Portia, bakit ka nandito?" Awkward.
"Uy, Steven. Wala naman, gusto ko lang mapag-isa." You can't fool me, Portia. Kilalang-kilala kita simula pa nung bata tayo.
"Your eyes, Portia. Your eyes. Magdi-dilim na, nandito ka pa. It isn't safe here."
"Heto kasi yung paborito naming lugar ni Apollo. Dito rin kami huling nagkita, nagkausap, at nagkayakapan." Huli? It means, wala na sila? Ano kayang ginawa nung mokong na yun.
"So this is the place where you had a closure?"
"Not really, Steven. Para sa akin, hindi iyon closure kasi siya lang naman yung may gustong umalis. That was unfair." I can feel her pain though her eyes and voice.
"Would you mind if I ask kung bakit daw?" Argh i'm sorry pero gusto ko lang talagang malaman.
Listening to her story, Apollo is a full-time jerk. Yung babaeng matagal ko ng pinapangarap, binasura niya lang. Akala ko pa naman nagbago na si gago. Nagpahinga lang pala.
"What the hell! Sorry to say pero are you really sure na you will waste a drum of tears for that jerk? Portia, maganda ka, matalino, mabait, talented, at hindi maipagkakailang you have the body. Tapos iiyakan mo yung gago na yun? Not being bolero but you deserve more than him. I don't even know if he's a man with balls. Putcha, pagsasawaan niya lang yung ibang babae dahil hindi mo maibigay sakanya yung gusto niya. And I admire you for being that kind of girl. You're really smart. Tama lang yun. Sana last na iyak mo na yan dahil sa mokong na yun."
Kung kaya ko lang sabihin sayong matagal na kitang gusto — mahal pa nga eh, hays.
"Thanks, Steven. Alam kong may mali ako but thinking about our memories these past few days, I've done so much for him. Hindi ako nagkulang. Sumobra nga to be exact kaya ganun siguro. Ibinigay ko lang naman kung anong kaya kong ibigay. Wala naman akong magagawa kung sa ibang babae niya mahahanap yung saya na gusto niya."
Hindi ko mapigilan sarili ko shet. I really need to hug her tight.
"I hope, nakatulong. Hindi naman kasi ako expert sa love. Ang alam ko lang is makinig at tumabi sa taong gusto ng karamay."
"Maraming salamat, Steven. Iba ka talaga, kababatang malakas ang tama." Kulit talaga hays.
"Hay nako. Mapang-inis ka pa rin, Portia. Hatid na nga kita pauwi at maggagabi na. Baka hinahanap ka na sainyo."
Date Published: March 21, 2020
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Kathryn Bernardo as Portia Reign Madrigal
Daniel Padilla as Steven Huey Cristobal
Alden Richards as Apollo Villar
