Desire or Revenge (Cancelled)

Chapter 17: War of Emotions

I woke up gasping for air and with tears streaming down my face. I was startled by this, how long was I crying for? I had a dream about Coltelli again, this time, they killed me. I didn't feel safe anymore. They managed to get into my home, they can manage anywhere.

I need real protection, and where else would I get it other than... Yes I've concluded that I'm only safe with the Wild Lions when it comes to Mafias. I never thought I'd say that, especially since they killed my parents... Well Hunter probably isn't like that, right, after yesterday he seemed to have such a gentle, protective soul. Just as I was thinking about him, my phone rang, jolting me out of my thoughts.

*RING RING*
Although my vision was blurry from tears, I could faintly make out the name Hunter on my screen. He was calling me...

"Hello..." I answered in a slow tired voice.
"Hey Alexa! How are you? When are you free?" said Hunter in a chirpier voice than mine.
"I'm... fine I suppose. Well I'm free all day I think, I don't have a shift."
"What shift? Have you got a new job already?"

Shit I thought to myself. THINK ALEXA!
"Sorry, um I just forgot I'm not in your job anymore." I quickly replied.
"Speaking of that, do you want to meet up in say about an hour? It's about the job."
"Yeah sure. Where, at the Louve again?" I asked, it's where we had previously met up.
"See you there!" He replied and hung up.

What was I doing..? Getting back at it, back 'into the belly of the beast'. My thoughts quickly changed as I realised I only had an hour and I looked like a mess in my pyjamas, smudged makeup and tangled hair. I jumped out of my comfy bed and got myself sorted in a nice clean outfit.
I slowly walked down my stairs when I finished. I could now see the scene of the crime. Objects and furniture were on the floor and the carpet was stained in small areas of dried out blood. This will be horrible I thought to myself as flashbacks of yesterday flooded my mind. I took a look at my arm, which one of them had grabbed. It was heavily bruised with red and purple welts showing where his fingertips dug into me. I shuddered.

I grabbed my denim jacket from the coat holder to cover the bruises and took one final look around. "I need new locks." I said to myself and with that I opened my front door in a hurry to quickly get out.

As I swung the door open, there stood Kai walking towards my door, looking exhausted. His face lit up when he saw mine and he hurried his pace up.
"Uh Kai, hey..." I said awkwardly stepping outside. When Kai got inches away from me, he cupped my face into his hands and gave me a sweet peck on the lips. Whilst it was pleasant, I couldn't enjoy it. It felt wrong...

"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to the Louve to meet Hunter..."
His happy smile instantly dropped and he looked betrayed. My heart ached seeing him like this.

"What for? I thought you were done with him!"
"It's not like that. He just wanted to meet up."
Kai was about to reply but I locked my door and shoved past him.
"Alexa...?"
I blinked back my tears, I felt horrible just leaving him there, standing alone. I stepped into my car and drove away. I turned my music up a load to try block out my thoughts on this sad journey.

When I reached the cafe, Hunter was already there, in his usual place looking across the distance of the busy street. Once again, as I entered the cafe, Hunter's blank look switched into a smile. Both guys liked me and while that was meant to be fantastic for the mission, I could hardly stand it. I sat down at the table close to Hunter.

"Alexa, hello!"
"Hey. Before we begin, where are the Coltelli guys?"
"Dumped then in an alley, they'll be fineeee." He laughed, obviously pleased with himself. I was skeptical over this...
"Anyway, what did you want to talk about?"
"You leaving of course. It was your mistake wasn't it?"

Way to blame it on me. I didn't have much of a choice.
"Yes, it was..." The next words hurt. "I'd like to join back, Coltelli already tried to murder me like twice and-"
"You miss me?" Hunter insisted smirking with his left eyebrow up in a sexy way, waiting for my response. Thanks for cutting me off, midway my speech of redemption.

I put on my best flirtation skills. "Oh course Hunter." I reached for his hair resting on his forehead and playfully twirled my finger around his spiked black hair. I asked myself, why was I doing this? My mission was clear. Seduce Hunter and get into his inner circle. Check and check, why was I still messing with his and my emotions..? Sure it was fun, and maybe I liked him, but I had Kai and my heart still felt empty.

"Alexa, I don't get you. Sometimes it seems like you want me and then sometimes it's like you can't stand me..."
He was right, my emotions were at war when it came to him. I slowly took my hand away from him, feeling rejected in a way.

"Just tell me where I stand with you and the Wild Lions..?" I replied, not daring to answer his statement.
"With me? That's still a mystery to me. But I do want you to join us and maybe go on a business trip with me, to Italy."
Italy, my home. I hadn't gone back there since I first left all those years ago. I longed to go and visit, but on business...

"Why don't you take Rachel instead?" I sighed, rolling my eyes.
Hunter looked puzzled and shocked. "Alexa isn't it clear to you, I want to go with you only"