Desire or Revenge (Cancelled)

Chapter 23: Anger

"What do you mean?! Oh course I have a gun!" He responded while raising his eyebrow as if I just asked the stupidest thing ever, in his eyes, I did.
He was approaching me slowly and angrily, eyeing all the objects I had gone through. He was obviously a very private person. His hair was wet and slicked back and there was a white towel around his waist. This gave me a sense of deja vu. Except this time, instead of sexy I had angry. "I am the son of a mafia boss, how can I not carry a gun Alexa!?" He bent down beside me and picked up his journal. He carelessly shut it closed and threw it into his luggage as if it had to value.

"How'd you even smuggle this to Italy?" I asked terrified, but tried to look in control. I could feel my cheeks heating up as his body was just inches from touching mine. I tried to focus on his face instead of his fit torso.

"It was already in Italy. What I want to know is, why are you so shocked by this? And why are you going through my stuff?" He asked glaring into my eyes, trying to figure me out.
"Can't I know what it's for? For that business you won't tell me about?" I tried to ignore his second question.
"I'm not telling you because I don't want you to know about it yet! It's for your protection..."

"You don't tell me anything..." I mumbled, stood up and brushed past him walking out of the room. I could hear him groan as I entered my room and before I knew it I could hear him march over to me. I sat on my bed and he stood in front of me with his arms crossed over his naked body.

"Don't act so hurt. You don't tell me shit either!" He raised him voice pointing a finger at me. I admit I was was terrified of this side of him. I didn't see it often, but when he was mad, he showed it. He is the son of a mafia boss after all.
"What.. do you mean?" I asked as I retreated further back. He looked like he regretted saying that.
"Nothing, it doesn't matter."
"No, tell me!" What does he know..? About the mission perhaps...
"The other man. The man I always see you with, the man you went on a date with! The man I've seen you kiss..."

Kai? Shit, he knew about us.
"You and I aren't even together. I have the right to see who I want. You never made any effort to express yourself or even ask me out!" I exclaimed. A part of me wanted him to ask me on a date, at least once...

Then I realised "Hold up... How do you know I went on a date with him?"
"I was there, at the... restaurant and I well saw you two-"
"You stalked me!?" I boomed. "Let me guess, you called me that night when me and him were about to-"
I shut up. I was jeopardising my mission way too much. I was doing the opposite of what I was meant to do. Loving him was hard, but also not loving him...

"Hook up? Yeah I did! Happy?" he exploded smiling sarcastically. He began to pace around his area and he closed his eyes and began to massage his temples.
"You jealous asshole! So you're allowed to cheat on Rachel with me and I'm not allowed to see any guy, even when we aren't together!" I cried out bursting into tears. I stood up to face him. I had an urge to slap him in the face. I never cry this much but with him, I'm a different person.

"I'm not with Rachel anymore! And yes Lex, I am jealous. If I can't have you, no one can. Who said we aren't together?" He quietly growled and his lip started to curl back into a smile. He put his strong arms on my shoulders, instantly pushing me down on the bed. He stole all my strength to push back up. He knelt down and stared at me with hunger and anger. "Why can't you be mine..?" He whined flirtatiously.

Those words, they kept ringing in my ear like a beautiful melody. They sounded so good coming from him.
His hand retreated from my shoulder and roughly landed on my bare thigh. He began to drive his hand higher while not taking his eyes off mine which were wet from tears and wide open.

I felt electricity travel throughout my body as his touch ignited me. I was frozen in shock but my heart was beating rapidly and I could feel my cheeks blush. His hand was about to reach the tip of my underwear and I came to my senses.
I took what was my lifeless arm and struck him across the face in an instant! I was shocked by my own impulse but he was more.
His hand dropped to his side as did he mouth. His eyes exploded open in shock and his eyebrows furrowed in anger and pain. He moved his lips to speak, but no words came out.

The atmosphere shifted from romantic to dangerous! I could hear his breathing get louder and louder. "You... you can't chose, between love and... hate, can't you..?" He growled and stood up. "For your actions, mafia members could hurt or even kill you."
"Is that a threat?!" I shouted disgusted.
"You're lucky I'm not like them." He said quietly and turned away from me and walked towards the door.
"You tried to rape me?!"
"No... I wouldn't do that Alexa, not without your consent. I don't fucking rape, I don't take drugs, kill or anything."
"Why be in a mafia then?"
"It's all I have... Can't do anything else."

I felt guilty and bad for such a monster. A monster I seemed to really care for. I was betraying him and I was going to put away him and his father, Igor.

"Alexa." He turned back to look at me. "I'm truly sorry for... erupting I'm anger and touching you. I don't know how to deal with such feelings."
"Rachel? Your fiancé? You were going to marry her, but yet you dumped her for me, whom you've only known for a few weeks."
"I never felt, that attraction, like I do when I'm with you. My feelings are messed up cause of you." He held his red stinging cheek and walked out of the room.
He called out "Don't hide any secrets again." I kept my whole life a secret from him...

He left me sitting on my bed in shock and awe at what he said. I wiped my wet cheeks and quietly and gloomily got under my covers. Tears were pouring down my face and they wetted the pillow. I could still feel his touch on my thigh and in a way it comforted me. I didn't hear a single noise coming from Hunter. The silence was worrying.
Nonetheless I fell asleep clutching a spare pillow.

In the middle of the night, around 4am maybe, I heard my door quietly creak open. There was a slight light coming from the opened door, but I kept my eyes closed. I heard footsteps and ragged breathing. Soon the breathing reached my face. And I felt soft kiss on my forehead  and heard a quiet whisper. "I'm sorr..y."

It sounded like Hunter was crying...