R E J E C T S

CH.51: MIGHTY FALL

"We love you, Cher bear." Rob planted a kiss on my head.

"Don't call me that." I cringed.

"And hug's over." I added.

"So... do you want me to sleep with you tonight or what?" Rob asked.

"What?"

"I meant LITERALLY sleep with you of course." He added.

"No, I'm fine." Even though I wanted to, I just couldn't. It's A LOT more complicated than that.

"Can I sleep beside you just for tonight?" Luke tried asking.

"Um, okay." I agreed to let him stay for the night.

"What the hell? Hey, no fair! You like him better than me, don't you?" Rob started whining.

"Uh..." He's the one that I really like.

"Fine, whatever." Robbie pouted like a child.

"You can stay as well if you like. You just have to refuse that you're not going home. It's the key to sleeping over." Luke told Rob.

"Luke! Don't give him any ideas!" I sighed out loud.

"Too late. Thanks for the tip, mate. I'm not budging from this couch so you might as well let me stay over." Rob quickly glued himself on my couch.

"Thanks a lot, Lucas." I said sarcastically.

And this is what I get for letting Luke stay for the night...

"Hey, don't call me that! I just felt bad for the guy, you know? It seems that he really does want to sleep over." Luke shrugged.

"Damn right, I do! You never let me sleepover even though I let you sleepover at my house an awful lot." Rob said.

"Alright, sleep here to your heart's content." I rolled my eyes.

******

"Rob? You fast asleep?" I checked around 1 AM.

"I believe that he is." I heard Luke say.

"I can't believe he won't let me sleep beside you." He added.

Robbie squeezed himself in the middle to separate Luke and I for some reason.

"He may be gay but he sure is possessive..." Luke sighed.

"Anyway, let's talk about your unrequited love for him." He changed the topic.

"What?" I was slightly taken aback by what he just said.

"You know what I'm talking about, Cher." His voice sounded serious.

"I always look at you, you know? And sometimes, I see things." He added.

"Like paranormal things?" I asked.

"No, that would be scary. I see the way you look at him at times and it reminds me of how I look at you." He explained.

"Am I really that obvious?"

"Not really, it's just that I see things. Anyway, I think you should tell him soon." He suggested.

"You're okay with that? Why?" I thought out loud.

"Well, I thought about what you said about you not being deserving to love or to be loved. It's... sad."

"But you're already loved by me though so all you have to do is to love. I can take it if it isn't me as long as you're happy." He said pretty maturely.

"When did you grow up?" I can't help but smile as I said this.

"When I completely fell for you."

"Just to be clear, I'm not saying that I'm giving up on you already. If your confession doesn't work out then you can always come to me." He added.

"Okay..."

He was right though. It's about time I tell Robbie how I really feel about him.

Only, I was probably too busy being in denial about it with myself that I never got the chance to realize that this is my mighty fall... in love.

I'm not expecting him to feel the same way about me.

It's just that I want to voice out my feelings so that I can let it all out once and for all without any regrets.

The problem is, I'm too much of a coward to confess!

I mean, I've never really 'confessed' to someone before.

It's usually the other way around and I'd only reject guys most of the time with the exception of Zayn.

Although I didn't take our relationship seriously back then, I do like him as a person and maybe as a friend.

Even though he's my ex, he's still sticking around and that's sort of something.

And as for Luke... I really do like him A LOT which is partly the reason why I don't want to confess to Robbie because I know that it'll hurt him even though he says that he's okay with it.

But it's Robbie that I love and ugh! It's all SO complicated!

Why did I have to fall in love with someone who doesn't even like girls anyway?!

*THE NEXT DAY*

"I'm out." I told Rob the next morning.

Luke left earlier so that Rob and I could have our 'little talk'.

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?!" He started panicking.

"Uh-huh. I'm sorry." I looked down.

"Give me one good reason why you're breaking up with me..." He demanded.

'It's because I think that I might be in love with you and I just can't take all the pretending and being near you anymore.' I thought.

But that would be a pathetic excuse for breaking our contract so...

"I'm sorry." I just apologized once again.

"I can't believe you! After all that we've been through? You're dumping me just like this?!" He raised his voice.

"Well, I was going to tell you on the night of the dance but I never got the chance---"

"And how does that make me feel any better?!" He cut me off.

"It doesn't." I simply said.

"I thought we were best friends..." He says.

"Yes, we are." And it was a mistake to fall for a close friend, I know that now.

"Then why are you doing this all of a sudden?"

"I... um, I'm going back to my hometown." I couldn't look him in the eye for I knew that he'd see through my lie right away.

"You're lying."

Okay, he still sees through me anyway... even without the eye contact.

'Say it, Cher. Just say it already!' My inner voice told me.

"It's because I l---"

"You know what? Forget it. We're officially over if that's what you really want." Then he walks out of the door without even letting me finish.

"Luke, I took your advice and we ended up fighting instead..." I called Luke right after Rob left.

"What happened? What went wrong?" He said over the phone.

"Well, I never really got the chance to tell him in the end. Maybe it's for the best. Maybe this is fate telling me that it's truly not meant to be." My eyes started leaking.

"That's bullocks! I'm coming over right now. Stay where you are, okay?" Then he hangs up and the silence was deafening.