Two Worlds V

XXIX

Vincent...

A cigarette pressed between her lips

But I'm staring at her tits

It's the wrong way

Strong if I can but I am only a man...

I had one arm around one of the strippers while another rubbed my chest. I ate a cherry from the one who I had my arm around.

"Say something in German," The one rubbing my chest said.

I breathed in sharply and thought. I said a certain something seductively in German. She cooed slightly and giggled. I chuckled in my throat and kissed her neck, giving them permission to go at it.

Cas...

She wants to be up there

In the air where the clouds live

The sweetest seeds make the best trees

30, 000 feet she can smile and now

I sat at the bar and ordered a shot. I shot it back and let it set in. I ordered again and repeated the process. I set down the glass as the room spun slightly. I blinked and the feeling was gone. I got the bar tender and he filled my glass again.

I flashed out of the bar when I had reached over 50 shots. I rested against a stone wall and rubbed my eyes. I looked around slightly and realized I was on the side of the road.

I pressed my back against the wall before sitting down.

Jack...

You got your keys, but where ya goin'?

The third degree just isn't workin'

Cause you walked out without asking me to go

And if I followed you home, would you be alone?

I walked down the street, hands stuffed in my jacket pockets as I kicked at rocks. I sniffed in slightly. I wanted Cas to say yes, but then she was right. Whenever she had someone close to her like that, something always made them go away from her. What if that happened to me? Maybe if we weren't public about it, then nothing would happen?

I breathed out and looked up to see Desiree at the curb, looking around.

"Hey," I said, and she looked at me, "What's up?"

"Uh, nothing," She said, "Are you okay? I haven't seen you the past couple days,"

"Yeah, uh, I'm good," I said, "Just that something happened that I needed to take care of,"

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked, turning to me.

"It's complicated," I rolled my shoulders slightly.

"Well, where do you want to start?"

"It might take a while," I told her.

"I have the time," She assured me. I cleared my throat and motioned down the street.

We started walking. I told her what had been happening, but didn't go too personal and didn't tell her all the details and about what my mind did to me. She listened, a little too much almost. It was like she was soaking in every word I was saying. I didn't really pay attention to that though.

"I love her so fucking much, but we're both too scared to do anything. It hurts," I finished as we stopped.

"Well," She said, rolling on her feet slightly, "Maybe I could make up for what she couldn't do,"

"What?" I asked.

"I mean, not, you know, but," She nodded to the side and I looked to see we were standing near a motel.

Cas...

I stared at the street as my head cleared slowly. I pressed my lips together tightly, then looked to my side. I looked at the empty spot beside me, and knew what was missing. I took out my phone, then called Jack.

"Hello?" Jack answered.

"Hey," I said, smiling slightly, then smiled fully, "I was wondering if you could come and pick me up?"

"Uh, yeah, yeah, definitely." He told me, "I'll be right there."

I nodded, "Thank you." I felt warm.

Jack...

I looked down to my phone, smiling. I looked to the ground, not feeling this happy in ever. I felt like my heart was beating like crazy.

"What is it?" Desiree asked.

"She said yes," I said, looking to her.

"What?" She asked, "And you're still going to do it? I thought she broke your heart,"

"She never broke my heart," I told her, "She just gave me more of a reason to fight." I smiled.

"But, I thought we,"

"I know, I'm sorry, but I can't," I told her, "She's the one." I got my jacket from her and started walking. I looked back slightly, "I'm sorry," I left quickly and got into town, looking around.

I saw Cas standing on the sidewalk, staring at her phone. I went to her and she looked up to me. She smiled at me slightly and put her phone away.

"Hey," I said, smiling back.

"Hi," She said back, and chuckled slightly.

I breathed in, then smiled at her, "Will you go out with me?"

She smiled, then nodded, "I can't wait any longer, Jack."

I tried to keep myself under control as I laughed slightly.

She smiled and I couldn't help but pick her up and hug her, swinging her around. She hugged me back and I set her down, holding her. She didn't feel as tense as she had before. I think that meant I was already doing a good job.

I looked at her as we parted and she smiled at me. I smiled back, feeling happier than ever. She took my hand and I felt accepted as we started walking, holding hands the whole way.

Vincent...

I got down into the bunker, itching my head slightly. I looked at Guy as he came in with ice cream and sat down at the map table. I sat next to him, stretching and yawning as he ate.

"Where'd you guys go?" Guy asked.

"I was out at the bar," I said, "I don't know about the other two."

"Oh," He said, and it was quiet other than the generators and him swallowing. I took his spoon, "Hey,"

I took a bite and gave it back to him. He poked at the ice cream and I flicked the back of my teeth with my tongue slightly. Sometimes I forgot it was split in half.

"Hey Vince,"

"Hm?" I looked at him.

"What's it like to kiss a guy?" He asked, looking at me.

"You wanna know?" I asked, and he nodded slightly, "You sure?" He nodded again. I leaned over and kissed him. He didn't move at first, then gave me a small kiss back. We parted, "So?" His face wrinkled to one side slightly.

"Nah," He shook his head as he kept eating. I scoffed and put my feet up on the table and my hands behind my head. The door opened and Jack and Cas walked in.

"Hey," I said, "Where were you two?"

"Library," Jack said as he went down the stairs with her.

"Bar," Cas said, "I'm gonna hit the hay."

"Same here," Jack said, going to the hall after her.

Guy finished eating, leaving me to clean up after him as he went to bed. I huffed and took the bowl to the kitchen. I set it in the sink and took off my jacket. I set it to the side and started washing the dishes, not having anything better to do.