The Royalties [COMPLETED]

Chapter 20 : Love's Manipulation

EUWAN'S POV

Mula nang maghiwalay kami ni Yumi, wala nakong ibang ginawa kung hindi magtrabaho nang magtrabaho. Halos sa office nako matulog araw araw. I had to keep myself busy dahil baka mabaliw nako kaiisip sakanya. It's undeniably worse than my usual schedule.

But what can I do? Dalawang beses nang nalagay sa panganib ang buhay niya nang dahil sakin, at sa tingin ko yun nalang tanging paraan para maalis sa panganib ang buhay niya.

When I saw her bathing with her own blood, I honestly don't know what to do. It's like my brain went blank at that exact moment. Nung mga panahong wala siyang malay habang nakaratay sa hospital, paulit ulit kong sinisisi ang sarili ko. I thought I could protect her, but I was wrong, she almost died, all because of my f*cking organization.

The day when I asked her about the annulment, I thought I was out of my wits. There's a part of me that was hoping she'll disagree. Umaasa talaga ko na sana tumanggi siya, but she didn't.

It was just supposed to be a contract marriage, I never planned to fall for her like this. I don't even know when it started, I just found myself getting used to her presence, wanting her attention, and it suddenly felt like having her with me 'till my last breath wouldn't be so bad.

Bawat araw na lumilipas na hindi ko siya nakikita, parang dinudurong ang puso ko. Then one day, I stopped at the coffee shop where I made her sign the Marriage contract, wanting to reminisce a special memory, but then, I saw her smiling from ear to ear while talking with a f*cking police man. I immediately left and went straight to my office. I was so furious back then, hindi sakanya kundi sa sarili ko, nagsisisi akong pinakawalan ko siya, I even kept asking myself if I made her happy even once while we're still together.

A day later, I asked Mancini to find something about that man, at kanina lang niya naibigay sakin, there, I found out that they've been meeting each other for the past few days. I was drown in pain and regrets so I went to a bar, drowning myself with loud music and alcohol instead. Alcohol already got me when I called her. Then everything came up to this point.

Dumating na ang araw na pinakakinatatakutan ko. I knew that this day would come eventually, the day that I'll have to tell her about my sins, about who really I am.

"Euwan" she called my name, waiting for my answer.

"It's because I love you...that's why I initiated the annulment" I answered, knowing it's not the answer I'm supposed to tell her.

"Hindi ko maintindihan Euwan"

F*ck! I'm f*cking nervous! What if she'll hate me? What if she'll leave me again? Should I tell her? Of course I should, ayokong magsinungaling sakanya.

"I'm uhh... I'm handling a f*cking underground business" there... I said it. Hinihintay ko ang magiging reaksyon niya, pagtingin ko sakanya nanlalaki ang mga mata niyang nakatingin sakin

"A-Ano?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya.

"About what happened, it's my fault, kagagawan yun nung kabilang grupo na gusto akong mapabagsak kaya ikaw ang sinaktan nila. They used you as a warning" pag-aamin ko. She stayed silent as she listened so I continued.

"I wasn't able to tell you because I was so scared that you'll get mad and end up hating me. But you have all the rights to be mad. Kasalanan ko kung bakit dalawang beses nang nalagay sa panganib ang buhay mo" nakatungong sabi ko.

"You... Are you a Mafia Boss?" she asked, I looked straight into her eyes.

"Yes. Now, would you call me selfish if I will ask you to stay by my side despite all the possible consequences?" sobra sobrang kaba ang lumukob sa sistema ko. Natatakot ako sa posibleng isagot niya. Napahilamos siya ng mukha at matamang tumingin sakin