B R E A K - Jikook

5

jm pov

"do you want to go on vacation together again?"

I froze. out of all the things running through my mind, that was the last option I would've come up with. he looked like a puppy with big round eyes begging for a treat. I didn't know what to say, so I stayed silent, my heart starting to beat faster again.

"Sorry, it was stupid to ask. I just miss hanging out with you lately... you know, as we used too," he said. my shock faded as I began to listen to him. he sounded so... sad.

it was all my fault. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have kissed him. what was I thinking? now because of me, our friendship has been ruined. jungkook was so kind to even agree to forget about it, but this? asking me to go on vacation with him as if nothing happened? I couldn't believe how horrible I was too him. we were so close before but now... I messed everything up.

I bit my lip. hatred tainted my veins, running through every inch of my body. seeing him in front of me like this broke me. I hated myself so much I couldn't even describe it. I didn't deserve to go on a trip with him. I didn't deserve his kindness. I didn't deserve anything. I looked away.

"it's ok if you don't want to.. I know its kinda short notice I mean, I don't even know where we would go...."

I bit my lip harder. I couldn't stand it. knowing that sad voice was because of me. I sighed. I turned back to face him, giving him my best fake smile. I tilted my head happily and squinted my eyes to emphasize the smile.

"how about japan again?" I asked. his eyes lit up, and his frown was quickly replaced by a huge grin. he sat up, and looked at me with excited eyes. " we still haven't gotten to see a lot of things there, and we can eat as much sushi as we want without anyone caring."

"That sounds awesome!" he said happily. he seemed so excited that it made me feel even worse for considering not doing it and. taking his heart. I couldn't win. no matter what I did I never was able to feel happy around him. "when should we go?"

"it might be a bit abrupt, but how about tomorrow? I've always wanted to go on a spontaneous adventure, this seems like the perfect time to do it. it'll be a nice break from Korea for a while". as I spoke a little glimmer of hope found its way into me from my words. maybe it would be nice to just, run away. a foreign country with no plans, no one to stop us. maybe it would be nice. maybe I could actually have fun for once.

"id love that! I've never seen you be so wild Jimin, but if we're going tomorrow we should probably figure out where we're gonna stay, and how we're gonna get there."

"Right..." I sighed. I and jungkook spent the rest of the morning picking plane tickets and finding a hotel. we decided to stay in the Harajuku neighborhood. we wanted to check out all the cool stores in the area and since we'd never been there before we thought it was perfect.

one by one the other members woke up, but I and jungkook were so engrossed in our travel plans that we didn't hear the knocking on the door

"ya! Jimin! is jungkook in there! seokjin ordered chicken for breakfast!"

hearing yoongis loud voice from the door snapped us out of our trance, and we noticed just how much time had passed. it was already 9:00.

jungkook leaped up and ran to the door. getting yoongi angry was never good, and I could tell be the tone of his voice he was starting to get annoyed with us. jungkook opened the door.

"Sorry Hyung, me and Jimin were busy," he said. I stood up and followed the two out the door to the dining room were the bowls of grilled chicken and fried noodles were laid out along the table.

"what were you two doing in there that made it so hard to hear me knocking," he asked. jungkook smiled.

"We were planning a trip!" he said. we all sat down at the table, the other members already beginning to dig into their food.

"a trip?" namjoon asked curiously, looking up from his plate.

"Yeah, I and Jimin decided to go to Japan tomorrow. I know its last minute, but we planned everything out really carefully so it's ok if we go right?" he asked. namjoon smiled.

"of course it's fine," he said. "you don't need to ask permission anymore kookie. isn't  it a bit sudden though, I didn't even know you wanted to go on vacation"

"It was kinda a heat of the moment thing," I said, trying to hide the slight fear in my voice. "but we're both really excited for it"

"jiminie, make sure to take a lot of pictures, ill be bored when you leave!" taehyung said with his playful whining tone. I smiled, but I knew he was just playing it up. we hadn't hung out like we used to in months. despite what my brain told me I smiled and agreed with him.

"What time do you guys leave?" hoseok asked between bites of his food.

"tomorrow at noon." jungkook replied. hoseok responded with a nod.

"you guys better pack well, bring enough money for food. I think I have a few extra yen from our tour left in my room, you can take however much you need." seokjin said with his motherly tone. everyone giggled.

"Thanks, mom, ill be sure to take all of it," jungkook said, and everyone giggled again.

"Jimin, aren't you gonna eat?" yoongi said. I looked down at my bowl, realizing that my food was still completely untouched. I didn't really feel like eating right now, but the member's gaze on me forced my hand so I took a big bite of the chicken. it was so salty, and cold from sitting out for a while. I tried not to show the urge to spit it out on my face, and forced myself to get it down.

"seriously..." I said. "who gets grilled chicken for breakfast?"