B R E A K - Jikook

15

the conversation in the living room lasted for hours. it was almost 10 o clock by the time it started to wrap up. when I stopped crying everyone calmed down as well. they asked me lots of questions but quickly realized I wasn't ready to answer them yet. we talked about me going on a break and how the preparations for the next album we're going to change. the whole time I couldn't shake the guilty storm swelling in my stomach, but having jungkook bt my side helped a lot.

one by one the members started to head to their rooms. yoongi was the last one to say goodnight before leaving me and jungkook alone in the living room.

"don't stay up too late, you probably need a lot of rest. I hope you feel better in the morning after a good night's sleep" he said before walking out. I sighed and stood up, ready to head to bed myself, but suddenly jungkook grabbed my hand.

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jk pov

"um.. jimin. can we... can I talk to you alone for a second?" I asked, my voice a bit shakey. he looked a bit confused but slowly nodded. I let go of his hand and sighed. this is where the real hard part would begin.

I knew it probably wasn't a good time, but I couldn't hold back anymore. when we first went to japan I planned on telling him there. maybe at a fancy dinner or in a field of cherry blossoms at a temple worshiping a goddess of love.

I wanted it to be more romantic, but then... I found him like that... and everything changed...

after taking him to the hospital and coming back to the dorm I confided in taehyung. I told him everything. I told him about when he kissed me, I told him about why I wanted to go on a trip with him, and I told him about how strong my feelings for him had gotten.

saying it out loud, it made me realize that I couldn't go on with so much tension between us. every time I went to visit him in the hospital I wanted to scream out that I loved him, but I couldn't. it wasn't the right time.

tae was surprised when I told him, but he encouraged me.

"I didn't know you thought of him like that... I don't know what I would do if I found out someone I loved was.... doing that... I have no idea what to do, I feel so empty knowing all of this was happening right under my nose but... I'm sure with someone like you hell be able to feel better. I don't know if nows the right time though..."

his words echoed through my mind as jimin sat back down beside me. I bit my lip to stop it from quivering. I was so nervous but I couldn't wait any longer.

I could feel it every time we were together. he liked me too. why would he kiss me if he didn't? why would he agree to go on a private vacation, or let me hold his hand and hug him like that? I felt like, if he knew I liked him back then maybe he wouldn't have to worry about liking me anymore.

maybe I was the cause of his pain. maybe he felt guilty for liking me, for liking a boy and a member of his band. maybe if he knew I felt the same... then he wouldn't have done this...

"Jimin... i... I need to tell you something" I started. I took a deep breath, lifted my head, and looked directly into his eyes. "I know now might not be a good time, but if there's any chance this will help you feel better, I have to take it..."

"what is it?" he asked, his expression was worried and scared. I couldn't make him wait any longer, and more of this and he'd think I was going to tell him I hate him or something. it was now, or never.

"I have feelings for you"

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jm pov

I froze. I cover my mouth with my hands to stop myself from screaming out in shock.

this couldn't be real. there was no way, and yet. there he was. I pinched my cheek. it wasn't a dream. jungkook... the man I had a crush on for so long, the man I cried over and constantly berated myself for liking... confessed to me.

my eyes felt hot as tears once again began to blur my vision. I couldn't move my hands from my mouth. even after everything that happened today
all of the pain and guilt and awkwardness, my heart was fluttering so hard. I wasn't covering my mouth to hide my shock anymore, it was to hide my smile.

"jungkook... " I said. I slowly moved my hands away from my mouth. "you... you like me?" he nodded. he looked a bit scared but also determined. he was so cute...

"so... do you... uh.." he started asking. i wiped away my tears and let my smile show as my answer. his face instantly brightened. before I knew it, his arms were around my waist, and his lips were against mine.

it had been so long since that time. since I first kissed him. I forgot how soft his lips felt... I wrapped my hands around his neck, deepening the kiss. I didn't care about anything anymore. all I could think about was him. it was like a fairytale.

he liked me back... he really liked me back...

we slowly pulled our lips apart, and instantly he embarrassed me.

"I'm so happy you accepted me. I was so scared this would just hurt you more..."

"I'm happy to.," I replied. I buried my face into his shoulder.

for the first time, it wasn't a lie.