B R E A K - Jikook

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jm pov

"Hello?" I asked, trying and failing to hide my shaky voice. Jungkook should be at practice, so why was he calling me? I prayed that it would be a normal wholesome phone call, but the sinking feeling in my stomach told me it wouldn't be.

"Where are you?". His voice sounded frantic and worried. My breath hitched. I didn't have time to think of a good lie, so I just said the truth.

" the bathroom..." I said, my voice quivering. I played with the hem of my jacket.

"Where? You said you were going to the convenience store?". It was yoongi, jungkook must have gone back home. It was on speakerphone...

" I did, I just... Needed to use the bathroom..." I replied.

"For an hour?" Yoongi shot back. His tone was angry but I could also hear the worry in his voice. I couldn't come up with anything to say so I stayed silent.

"Jimin... Are you ok?" Jungkook asked, his tone much softer than before. He sounded so sad. My heart twisted hearing his words. I wanted to respond like I normally did, but something about his voice just stopped me. I wanted to lie and say I was fine, but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth. I felt tears start to well up in my eyes. I didn't even know why.

I had just thrown away all of the time and effort everyone put into helping me so I could go hurt myself in some dirty public restroom, I didn't have the right to accept their help. A person like me who would sneak out to buy razors behind the people who cared about me mosts backs... I didn't deserve to be forgiven for this.

But my heart ached so much. It was like a hand reaching out of my chest grasping for someone to listen. I tried to stop it, but it was too strong. I let the hot tears fall down my cheeks.

"... No".

I held my breath, waiting for their response. Waiting for them to laugh or yell at me for thinking I deserved their help, but they didn't.

" did you..." Jungkook replied, trailing off before he could finish his sentence. I bit my lip and sucked in another breath.

"Yeah..."

"We're coming to get you". Then, he hung up. I wiped the tears away from my face and finally stepped out of the bathroom. I walked back towards the convenience store to make it easier for them to see me. It didn't take long before a car pulled up next to me. I stopped and looked down. Slowly, the car door pulled open.

" Jimin!" Jungkook yelled. He lept out of the car and wrapped his arms around me. Instantly, I lost control. The tears I thought id wiped away began streaming down my face. Yoongi stepped out of the car too and placed his hand on my back before hesitantly joining the hug.

"I'm sorry..." Yoongi said softly. He held on a little tighter. Yoongi wasn't nearly as cold as some people thought he was, but it was still rare for him to hug someone and cry so openly.

Suddenly, something clicked. Something I should have realized a long, long time ago...

They cared about me.

I couldn't even explain it. All this time I was so convinced that I was alone, and that no one cared about me. Even when I and jungkook started dating I still felt like I was a burden to him. It hit me in the face like a truck. I had never felt such strong love in my entire life.

We stood there hugging and crying together for almost 5 minutes before we could all calm down. Slowly the group hug fizzled out and our blurry vision cleared up. Jungkook helped me into the car, and yoongi followed him.

"Sorry..." I said softly to the driver, she shook her head as if saying "don't mention it!" I nodded back at her. Jungkook held my hand tightly as we drove back to the down, I focused on his soft hands to stop myself from crying again. As soon as we were back in the house, jungkook grabbed my shoulders and kissed me.

I closed my eyes and held his hips tightly. At that moment, everything stopped. I could almost feel his emotions inside of me. Fear, worry, love... It made me want to cry again.

"Um..." Yoongi awkwardly said. Me and jungkook quickly separated, to see yoongi staring at us with a look of complete and utter confusion. " did I miss something?" He asked. Jungkook laughed, breaking the silence. The mood suddenly switched from sadness to playfulness. As we all began laughing. Jungkook grabbed my hand and held it up.

"Actually" he began. He smiled at me. "We just started dating yesterday," he said. I held my breath waiting for yoongis reaction.

"Really? I had no idea you even liked each other! Am I the first one you've told?" He asked. Jungkook scratched the back of his neck.

"Well, yeah, kinda." He said. I giggled. Yoongi sighed then clapped his hands together.

"Well, congratulations... I guess" he said. " but... We still have to talk about this"

I looked down. The joyful mood was completely sucked out of the conversation in an instant. Jungkook sighed and squeezed my hand.

"Let's go to the living room..." He said softly. Slowly, I nodded.