B R E A K - Jikook

9

it took forever for the cut to stop bleeding, I was in the shower for almost 3 hours. I probably pissed off the hotel workers, but I didn't have time to think about that. luckily there was an emergency first aid kit in the cabinet in the bathroom, so I did the best I could to disinfect, steri strip the cut closed, dress, and cover the cut. I put on the baggy sweatpants and t-shirt I brought to wear after the shower and grabbed onto the edge of the sink to help my stand up.

each step I took sent a shot of pain through me, I tried to walk around and get used to it so it wouldn't be limp tomorrow, but it was no use. all of the suffering I had felt the past year finally caught up to me and exhaustion completely took over my body. I was so tired of trying. staying up all night cutting, pretending to be someone I wasn't. what was the point? what was the point of it all? where did it get me?

I fell onto my bed, hissing as the still sensitive cuts hit the mattress. I pulled the covers over my whole body, burying myself in them. I didn't want to see anything. I didn't want to hear anything or feel anything. I just wanted to go away. I let out a quiet whimper as tears started to flow down my cheeks. I couldn't remember the last time I cried myself to sleep, but I knew this was the most painful cry I'd had yet. my eyes pounded from the intense crying, and all of my energy was depleted. for the first time in a long time, I was able to fall asleep.

___

jk pov

I woke up around 6 am, not a very fitting time for a vacation. Jimin was still fast asleep in his bed, I could tell just by looking at him he'd probably be asleep for a while. I knew I shouldn't have fallen asleep so early.

I pulled myself up, stretching, and yawning as the thick covers fell off of me. I was still in the clothes from yesterday, sleeping in jeans was never a good idea. the rough fabric itched against my skin, and I desperately needed a shower. I ruffled my hair to get it out of my eyes and stood up.

I looked over at the bed next to mine. he was sleeping face down, but the way his faded pink hair easily covered the back of his neck made my heart flutter. he was handsome even from the back...

after a brief staring session, I pulled my eyes away to take a long-awaited shower. the bathroom smelled like metal, I assumed it was some sort of cleaner they used, but I didn't mind. the hot water instantly cleared my foggy head when it hit my back. it was so soothing and nice, like a hot massage. I let my mind wander as I washed with the hotel's body soap.

Jimin took a shower last night, but the bottle of rosemary mint shampoo was still closed. did he use his own? I didn't see any.. maybe the hotel staff restocked it while we slept. they are really tiny bottles.

I wonder if he smells like this soap. I wish I could bury my head into his hair to find out... his skin would be soft from the moisturizing body wash, id love to cuddle with him.

I mean, he kissed me. he was the one who did it, that means he likes me? why would he kiss me if he didn't? he said to forget about it, but I don't want to. I think about it every day, I'm too scared to say it. I know he likes me too, so why is it so hard to tell him how I feel.

I stepped out of the shower and quickly dried myself off. I put on a fresh pair of comfy clothes and walked back out into the main room. surprisingly, Jimin was awake. ass soon as he saw me, he jumped and quickly looked away. weird...

"morning Jiminie," I said. I walked over to his bed and sat on the corner. he bit his lip.

"morning jungkook" he replied, his voice a bit sharp. did he seem... scared? was I making him nervous? maybe he thinks I don't like him? I should probably tell him soon. I don't like him feeling nervous around me. I want him to be happy around me"hey, how about we go to a local coffee shop for some breakfast, I saw a cool place on our way here" I said with a smile, hoping to lighten the mood, but his response was an awkward laugh.

"umm, actually I was wondering if we could stay in today," he said. I cocked my head to the side.

"stay in? like, in the hotel. don't you wanna go out while we're on vacation?" I asked. he nodded.

" yeah you know, jet lag.. haha. he" he said. he looked away and rubbed the back of his neck. my eyes instantly went to the bright red smear on his hand. as soon as he noticed I was looking he quickly shoved his hand under the blanket. was.. was that blood?

"what happened?" I asked extremely confused. his eyes widened.
,
"oh, nothing! its nothing I'm fine, I promise" I sat up a bit straighter, my back starting to feel chills of worry "why are you acting so... weird?" I asked. "are you sure you're ok"

"of course I'm, I'm fine, why wouldn't I be? forget what I said, let's go out somewhere. let me just go to the bathroom real quick." he said. before I could react he quickly tore the blanket off and rushed to the bathroom.

before I had the chance to say anything I heard the door lock. is sighed. I looked back over to the spot he was laying in, and my entire body froze.

bed sheets we're covered in blood.