Caught

Chapter 28

TYLER

            “Dude what the fuck? You got her pregnant?” I ask Liam as he sits across from me looking at the ground.

Liam came over early this morning after he heard the news last night.

I was already up when he knocked on my door, but that’s not what I was expecting to hear when he came over.

 “I don’t know how. I thought I wrapped it up, but I guess something happened.”

“Well what are you going to do?” I ask.

“I don’t know what I want to do let alone what I’m going to do.” He says.

“Have you told Syd yet?”

“Fuck no. I’m not going to tell her until the time is right.” He says, looking panicked.

“That’s up to you dude, but its going to be okay. You will get through this. Lots of guys do it. Just know this is going to change your life forever. Always know I’m here for you too. I’m always down to be a god father.” I say, laughing half-heartedly.

He smiles.

Good.

How could this all be happening? Liam can’t have a child.

“Yeah, I guess you’re right. I’ll figure this out with her. It will be okay.” He says.

He knows he’s kidding himself. This will never be okay. Nothing in our lives will ever be okay again.

“Have you heard from Harry at all?” I ask.

“No, not since we last talked to him. I feel so bad. I wish we never got mad at him. If I could take it back, I would.” He says, putting his head down.

“Same here, I miss him so much. Do you think he would answer if we went over?” I ask him, wondering if Harry would even look at us.

“Only one way to find out.” He says, looking up at me.

“Well, I’m sure he’s home. Let’s go over.” I suggest.

We get up from my couch, get in Liam’s car and head over to Harry’s house.

Liam seems hesitant, but I know he wants to see Harry as much as I do.

I know it’s not fair what we did to him, but it can’t hurt to try and make things right.

I’m so excited to see him, but nervous and sad at the same time. I can’t want to tell him the news about Liam.

I can’t wait to see my best friend.

“I miss him…” I say to Liam.

He looks at me.

“So do I. I hope he at least talks to us, but I don’t expect him to forgive us.” He says.

 

            We get to his house and we see his mom outside on her front porch.

She’s sitting on her porch swing, staring at nothing.

She looks so sad.

I know she misses the way things used to be with Harry. We all do.

He just misses Louis.

I don’t blame him. I would miss him too.

I get this sinking feeling that Louis would still be here if we all would have just left them alone.

Now I don’t want to see Harry.

I’m sure he doesn’t want to see us.

“Liam, maybe this isn’t such a good idea.” I say, stopping in the middle of the driveway.

“It’s fine T, we have to see him.” He says, walking towards the front door.

Harry’s mom sees us and gives us an icy stare.

“Why are you boys here? To harass Harry some more?” She spits.

Liam looks at the ground.

“No.” He says, wringing his hands.

I step behind Liam.

“Maybe we should go.” I whisper.

He shakes his head no.

“Can we just talk to Harry?” He asks, walking towards her.

“No, I’m sorry.” She says, a tear strolling down her face.

“Please? We just want to tell him how sorry we are, we never meant for all of this to happen.” I plead.

She looks down at the ground.

She stands up and walks over to her front door.

“Harry hung himself two days ago. He left only a note, saying he was sorry, but he simply just could not live without Louis.” She says.

She starts to cry and walks inside, she shuts the door behind her.

My ears start to ring and I can feel my pulse all over my body.

Harry is gone?

I turn to Liam and he is just staring at Harry’s front door.

This can’t be real.

This would have never happened, they would have never left if we just accepted them for who they were.

Two people who were just in love, are gone… because we couldn’t let them be in love.

But at least they can be together now, and be in love where nobody can hurt them.

Mom, friends, and anyone else who is reading this,

         I know you may think it's stupid that i left this earth for a boy, but it wasn't just for Louis, it was because if I'm not going to be accepted for who I am, why would I want to live? I won't spend my life hiding who I am just to make everyone else happy.

But I did love Louis very much. He was my sunshine. I was his moonlight.

I don't want to live in a world where Louis isn't by my side.

I love you all very much, but I know you won't miss me for too long.

Everything is going to be okay, I promise. I'm happy now, and soon you all will get over this and move on. I promise.

Harry xx 

The end <3

-Robia