Violate ahs hold me closer

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violets POV

After watching the gorgeous boy leave I snapped back to reality. I do not want to go to school tomorrow with anyone. I do not need to go to school with anyone. I do not want to talk or be seen with this boy ever! He's probably a popular jock, he's got the muscle and the looks. I don't want to piss off some rich bitch who he's currently banging. Thinking about this calmed me down. I went to sleep in my own bed for the first time in almost a year.

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I woke up to my mom tapping me and talking to me. I forgot to set an alarm clock. Gee I was so used to being woken up by harsh guards I didn't see a need for an electronic guard waking me up.

"Violet honey. You don't want to be late for school" my mom said.

I ignored her and looked at my clock. 6:30 am

CRAP I was going to leave earlier so I could avoid Tate.

I got out of bed and threw on random clothes because I took a shower last night. I put on purple leggings and black sweater. Even though it wasn't much, I felt matched and actually kind of pretty. It was a change from the usual horse crap I wore freshmen year. I liked this change, it gave me hope that from now on my life will be better.

I brushed my hair and teeth, actually put on some light mascara and a bit of lip gloss. I grabbed my backpack and went downstairs. It was 6:53 so I just left hoping I would get a head start without Tate.

I didn't exactly remember where to go but I thought I could figure it out. I passed houses and landmarks that I grew up looking at, but they felt distant and cold. Maybe because I wasn't as distant and cold. I really wanted to change from what I was before. I wanted to stop cutting and hating myself. Heck I already stopped cutting since I haven't cut in 9 months. It feels like an accomplishment and I didn't want to ruin that. I wanted to be a normal teenage girl. I warmed to have friends and maybe even a boyfriend. I needed to stop pushing people away. I could start with Tate. I turned around and started going back home, but I decided not to. A normal teenage girl wouldn't do that, she would play hard to get. And I needed to play something other than dominoes with crazy people in the common room for once.