A New Avenger

Everything is Different...

Everything is such a mess. Ever since what happened with cat everything has felt wrong. Now there's an unbearably huge rift in the new avengers. Loki is locked away and I know he can escape when he wants. But I also feel as if he doesn't care to leave, he just is sad. Ever since the incident with cap, Thor hasn't left my side even more. He has not stopped feeling his anger towards Loki and cap, but he tries not to show it to me.
I rolled over in bed. He was there, sleeping very quietly. I feel like I haven't slept in years. I silently got out of bed and put on my uniform, it was 5:30 am. I didn't know where I wanted to go, but I just wanted to get out. I slipped out the door and walked around base. I walked by a huge window and caught a glimpse of The sun rising and it was breathtaking. I couldn't remember the last time I was outside. Thinking about the warm sun and the cool grass made goosebumps cover my body. I sighed. I continued to stroll until I made it to a familiar door, the cell room where Loki is being held. I stared for a long time thinking about everything. I decided to decode the scanner and walk in. There he was, sitting on the ground just staring. Every day someone comes in to try and get something out of him. There are still hundreds of scientists and weapons missing and he won't tell us where.
I snuck closer and he saw me. I didn't want him to see me. He just sighed and said "we what do you want?" I felt terrible when I looked at him. I felt like I was reliving my own personal nightmare. I stuttered "I uh, I wanted to see you." He laughed, "Cant live with the guilt can you?" I looked down. I felt my eyes pricking, "no, I can't." He laughed louder and shouted, " Well YOU HAVE TO. YOU KILLED HER."  I just wanted to curl into a ball and disappear. He's right. I killed her. He continued, " I don't know why you've came here. Were you searching for closure? Were you expecting me to hold you like that big idiot who you oh so love and tell you it's okay? It's NOT okay. She was the only one who accepted me for who I am. Now she's gone." I felt my body shake, I knew I had to go. "Just GO. Just do damage and walk away AGAIN." I sped out. That was a terrible idea. 
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I walked around for the rest of the morning. Thinking. As I was I ran into cap. He looked drained too. He tried to not make eye contact with me but I stopped him, "Cap are you alright?" He looked down, "yes I'm fine. I can't tell you how sorry I am to you." I rested my hand on his shoulder, "I know you're sorry."  As he was about to speak I heard thor coming. He must've noticed I was gone. Surprisingly he was calm when he said, "Good morning Esme, hello Steven. Come on love, let's go." I grabbed his arm and strolled off with him. He asked me, "What were you doing with Steve? I said "I just ran into him, I have been walking around all morning. I couldn't sleep again." Thor looked like he wanted to get mad but he pushed it down and said, "you need more sleep, I fall asleep for one minute and the heroes ascend for you." He grinned and that reassured me it was just one of his bad jokes. I smiled.
Suddenly, alarms were blaring again, for the first time in awhile. Thor and I began to run toward Loki's cage. Not to our surprise he was gone. But how?? Thor summoned mijolnir and said "How has he done it, and why now?" Agents rushed in but it was already too late, Loki was gone. As we we're panicking, Fury called in the new avengers over the PA.
We all gathered and he seemed panicked, "I was beginning to think Loki could not escape, but he was playing us. We have to find him. I sent birds into the air to search for him, the rest of you, search the base, he couldn't have gone far yet." We all split up searching. Thor took to the skies and I walked around where the agents weren't.  I then began to hear strange laughing through a window. It didn't seem like Loki's demented laugh, but it felt familiar. I then went out a side door near the sounds.
I swung the door open and it clashed onto the side of the building. The fresh air hit my lungs and blew my springs of hair around. I walked out and then I saw them.....
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Loki and cat. My dead friend cat. The cat I killed. The cats body they still have. I felt so confused and they both smirked at me. She laughed loud and said, "you really thought it was that easy, you forget, I'm with the god of mischief.

I tensed up, knowing we were about to battle. Maybe not everything is different, the god of mischief never changes.