Heartless

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She's disgusting.

I love Colby and want him to be happy but Cora ain't it. I heard she's rude.

She's probably only in it for the clout.

Notice how nobody knew who she was before she started dating Colby.

I hate Cora she's so annoying. She's probably just trying to get knocked up or something so he will owe her money.

Let's kill her.

Tears streamed down my face as I brought a shaky hand to my mouth. Maybe Colby was better off without me, he had to see these comments all the time. He was probably starting to agree with them,
And was only pretending to be in love with me because I got knocked up. No. Stop thinking like that. He loves you. The rational part of my brain spoke up.

Some of the accounts were threatening to stop following him because of me. I needed to get away before they did. I needed a break. I couldn't drag him down like this, especially now that I'm actually pregnant. They would be so much worse if they found that out.

No. Shut up he loves you. He doesn't care what they think. The rational part of my brain screamed. The demons in my mind quickly shut down those thoughts as I got out of the bed.

I had to go.

I grabbed a piece of paper off of Colby's desk and wrote a note, placing it on the pillow. Then I walked out of the room quietly and tried to make my way down the stairs, I held my breath as I heard laughter from the game room. I quickly but quietly got outside, then sprinted, as tears fell from my cheeks. I was running away from the love of my life, and I had no idea why. I felt crazy for doing it, but I loved him so much that I couldn't watch his career and fan base crumble.

He was better off without me.

I didn't even realize how fast I was running until my chest heaved. I couldn't breathe as dry sobs fell from my throat. I quickly pulled my phone out and called my dad, "hey squirt..are you okay?" He said, concern filling his voice. "I'm getting on a plane tonight and coming home...I-is that okay?" I said trying to keep my voice steady but it was coming out thick. "Sweetie slow down, why are you coming home. What happened?" His voice stirn. "I..I need a break from LA...I need to get away." I said and looked around quickly, making sure nobody was around. "Did Colby hurt you?" He said causing me to shake my head. "God no, I hurt him. Daddy I'm hurting him." I sobbed out, completely losing control again. "Calm down, Cora. It's going to be okay. Yes you can come here absolutely. Just be safe, we will talk more when you get here." I nodded and hung up, then called an Uber to take me home.

I needed to get away.

The Uber got to me and I was home within 10 minutes. I quickly packed a bag and called another Uber. I had to be quick before anyone noticed I was gone. I honestly didn't know what I was doing or why I was even doing it. A thought of regret filled my mind for just a second, but I kept going, now running out of my apartment.

I got into the Uber and told them to get me to the airport. The sweet old lady looked confused as I just sobbed in her back seat. I felt broken.

I hated myself knowing that this would hurt Colby, but maybe this would make his fans stick around. Maybe they would stop giving him so much grief that I knew he was hiding so well.

We got to the airport and I heard my phone buzzing, I ignored it, not even looking to see who was calling me, and got out of the car. I booked it to the ticket counter, "how can I help you?" The tall man behind the counter said with a chipper voice,

"I need a one way ticket to Raleigh, North Carolina. The soonest one you have." I said as I felt my phone buzzing again. I squeezed my eyes closed tightly,
Holding in the tears that were building up. Why are you doing this? Go back to him. You love him. He loves you.

I shook my head, then opened my eyes again. "The soonest we have leaves at 10:45...if you run you'll make it." He said and I nodded, "that's perfect."

I couldn't contain the tears as I booked it through security, my phone constantly ringing. I couldn't bare it to see who was calling me. I couldn't know the damage I was creating because in this moment I knew I was losing myself. I was unwraveling. And I needed time away.

It felt like hours of waiting but I eventually made it on the plane. I quietly sobbed as it took off, taking me away from the people I loved.

Maybe it was a mistake.

No. Time with dad would be good. Colby would be fine without me for a while.

I leaned my head against the window and let my eyes close.

I let sleep consume me as my heart ached for Colby.