Heartless

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He just stared at me. His eyes roamed every inch of my face as tears flowed from both of our eyes. "Don't do this." He whispered. "I don't know what else there is to do." I whispered back, my voice cracking. "We can work this out Cora, this doesn't have to be like this." He slowly reached his hands out to me, and for the first time I backed up. The hurt in his eyes caused my heart to crack into a million pieces. "I'm sorry." I spoke so quietly it was barely even a whisper.

"Cora please don't do this. Please just listen to me." He said and stepped towards me again. I choked out a sob as I backed up again, now pressing myself against the wall. "They don't control me Cora. They never have and they never will, especially when it comes to you. If you want to end this because you don't love me anymore, and you don't want to be with me, then I can't stop you. But baby girl," he grabbed my hands, instantly giving me comfort, "Don't let them be the reason we break up. Don't let them break us." He said softly and brought one hand to my cheek.

"Why do they hate me so much." I said quietly, staring blankly at his chest. "I don't know, they are like this with any girl I'm around. It's just especially intense because we are actually dating." He brought his fingers to my chin, then tilted my head up so I could look in his eyes. "Do you love me?" He said and stared into my eyes, "more than anything." I said automatically, "do you want to keep this baby?" He said and rested his hand on my stomach, "yes." I whispered, "Then let's not make any crazy decisions right now. Okay?" I nodded, "I'm sorry."

He brought both his hands to the sides of my face and looked me in the eyes, "I love you. I love you so much more than you could ever know, and I only want you to be happy. We are going to figure this out." He spoke with such conviction, I couldn't help but let my eyes dart between his eyes and his mouth. He smiled, then leaned in.

His soft lips melded to mine perfectly as I brought my arms around his neck. He pulled me closer as we poured all our love into this one single kiss. I was so glad that he knew better than to let me end things with him. He knew I was trying to please others, rather than myself.

Our kiss was interrupted by Colby's phone ringing again, "put it on speaker." I said quietly as I unwrapped my arms from him.

"Sam." He said and put the phone on speaker. "Brother, I went to her apartment with Kevin and Aryia, there were fans everywhere, but nothing was damaged or anything like that. Did you tell her?" Sam said. "Yeah he told me." I said and sat on the bed, Colby following behind me. "Oh hey Cora, how are you feeling?" He asked which warmed my heart, I really did love Sam like a brother. "Heh, not great." I said honestly. "She just tried to break up with me." Colby said causing me to hit his arm, "oh shit, don't do that. I have a plan." Of course he did, he was always one step ahead of us.

"You two need to make a video or Colby you need to put a statement on social media. They need to know that this isn't okay. It's gone too far, even Kat's petrified to be seen with me. I think that will get them to stop at least for a little bit. Cora can move into the new house with us. We will get this to blow over." My face scrunched with confusion, "NEW house?" I asked and looked at Colby, "Yeah...uh haven't gotten around to talking to you about it yet." He said with a sheepish expression, "whoops sorry brother." Sam said causing me to laugh, "it's not a big deal guys. Just tell me later. Bye Sam!" I kissed Colby's cheek, then got up.

I walked out to the living room as he talked to Sam on the phone, and walked over to the couch and curled up in a blanket. I just wanted to be left alone at the moment, since my mind was still racing.

I loved Colby more than anything in the world, but was it selfish of me to hold him back? Shut up, he has said multiple times that you aren't holding him back and that he will fix this. My subconscious broke through. But is it selfish to let him go through hell for you? Is it selfish to tie him down with a kid? I shook my head, he loves you. He told you he wants to marry you. He wouldn't be doing this if he didn't want to. If he didn't love you.

"Cora, babe." Colby's voice broke through my thoughts. He was crouched in front of me, his hands enveloping my own. "I'm sorry." I mumbled causing him to shake his head, "never apologize, did you want to read the message Sam and I wrote?" I nodded as he sat next to me, then handed me his phone.

Hey guys! It's come to my attention that you guys aren't happy with me or my relationship. I don't appreciate the comments I have been seeing. You can come for me all you want but don't go after Cora, she makes me happier than you will ever know. I promise if you give her a chance you'll love her too. I wouldn't have let you know about her if she wasn't the one. Your words can hurt, please remember that we are human too. I love you guys so much. Please be kind. -C.B

"Do you think they will listen?" I said as leaned against his shoulder. "They better. Or I'll start blocking people, that will get them to stop." He said and rubbed my arm soothingly. "You're too good for me." I said sleepily causing him to chuckle, "we are too good for eachother." He said and kissed my head as my eyes closed. "Did you want to go to bed?" He said causing me to nod, suddenly being too tired to speak. He picked me up and brought me back to the bedroom, I could already feel myself slipping into sleep as he laid me on the bed. "I'm sorry for trying to break up with you." I mumbled sleepily as he stripped his shirt and joined me in bed. "Don't worry about it. I know you're going through a lot, I'm just glad you didn't go through with it," he chuckled and pulled me into his arms. "I love you." I whispered, listening to his heartbeat. "I love you more, get some sleep beautiful." He said and kissed me, just before I let sleep overtake me.