this // narry au

54. help me forget

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A/N: how do I casually suck one of my teacher's dicks because one of my teachers are hot as shit, from Spain and really hot accent and I can't he's sooo hot

I'm sorry if the chapter is written terribly, in half asleep and slowly fading off I keep sleeping for two minutes, waking up and continuing to write

54 - Help Me Forget

Zayn doesn't drive me home, he drives me to his duplex and forces me inside with a bag full of my shit and Charlie in my arms.

"Was Niall being a little bitch? Most guys that act tough eventually end up being little bitches." Zayn says as we step inside his house.

I drop the luggage onto the ground and let Charlie down. "Yeah, he was a little bitch," I murmur, kicking off my sneakers.

"I think you've spent too much time together and it's driving you insane." Zayn admits, "Like you two were in the honeymoon phase for so long."

"He got mad because I didn't want to leave London with him, then he claims I pretend to love him just because, and then he started to claim he knows everything about me and starts to talk about my depression like its a choice." I cross my arms, "Let me see his punk ass in my house I swear I'll backhand the bastard so hard he gets amnesia. I'm so mad at him."

"I wouldn't stop you." Zayn pats my back, "What did you say to him?"

"I called him out."

"I saw that, you pushed him against his car then started shouting," Zayn laughs, "I'm proud of you, Harry. Wallflower has a backbone!"

I nod absentmindedly, staring at Zayn's wall.

"What are you thinking about?" Zayn questions.

"Killing myself."

"Oh."

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I end up sleeping the night at Zayn's house and waking up with his giant ass 2-year-old boxer all up in my space. This is my mourning time and she chewed up all my socks.

"Make Lulu go away!" I shout.

"She just likes your company! Leave her be!" Zayn shouts back and I frown, looking at her and I swear she smirks at me before lolling her tongue out of her mouth. Zayn loves Lulu like she was his own daughter.

"Any word from Niall?" Zayn questions, "I mean I know I'm supposed to make you forget about it but I need to know."

I turn on my phone and look at the notifications, "Nothing from him."

"Good." Zayn mumbles, "Here, come walk Lulu around the block with me. You can walk Charlie if you want."

Try to smile but I feel like it comes off as a cringe as I stare at my blanket.

"Zayn?"

"Yeah?"

"I love him." I whisper. "Niall. I love Niall. So much-- f-fuck."

"I know," Zayn says softly.

"He keeps me alive you know, I don't really say it out loud but I think everybody knows by now."

"I know." Zayn nods.

"I told him to never come back. I think we're o-over--" I squeeze my eyes shut, trying my hardest not to cry because if I start I wouldn't be able to stop and then I'll end up hiccuping for two hours with red eyes.