Dark Thoughts

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Why do people try to help and protect me?

Okay. It doesn't fûcking work.

I know you want to make sure I don't get hurt but it won't change anything.

Some things I'm just gonna have to figure out myself and yeah, it's gonna be pretty shit but I need to.

I want your guidance but not your jurisdiction.

I want your advice but not your rules.

I want your suggestions but not your life sentence.

I don't want forceful answers but generalised statements.

If I want something specific I will ask.

Your protection won't work.

Not for me.

The only person who can protect me is me.

There will be no one else out there that can protect me like I can protect myself.

There is no one who will know when enough is enough or when to keep going.

No one knows.

No one gets it like I do.

No one gets 'it'.

My instinct.

My natural reaction.

To care and protect.

That is what happens.

But while I am too busy caring about others sometimes I forget about myself.

But that is my instinct.

That is how I survive.

I protect myself by protecting others.

Forget about me.

I'm thinking about you.

Don't worry about me.

How are you?

Because my protection doesn't matter.

I don't want your protection but I want to give you mine.