Dark Thoughts

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I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL.

I don't want to go to school but to a greater extent compared to the average, childish complaint.

I don't want to go and see how shit I am at my subjects. I don't want to go and see why I can't fit in.

I don't want to compare my past, present and future.

I don't want to know how fucked up I have become/am becoming.

I don't want to see what I used to be compared to what I am today.

A average to a C average- many would say there is nothing wrong with that and I agree, to a certain extent.

But, in a weird, twisted way I almost feel like I have to prove something...

Like I am not a failure and that I am going to do great, amazing things with my life.

I WILL.

I'll show them.

But then I turn around and look at myself now.

I am cold.

I am hungry.

I am tired.

I can't focus.

I feel like I am about to lose it.