Becoming

Chapter 15

August

Greg and I have been dating for  four months and I know at first he seemed uptight and boring, but as I got to know him he is actually interesting and way too romantic, but Im not complaining.

I also celebrated my 23rd birthday not so long ago. I didn't want anything big, but Saun organised a surprise party. Let's just say it was a bit too much than what I would normally go for, but I had a great time nonetheless.

"You never talk about you past relationships" we are laying on his bed, my head on his chest while his fingers run through my hair.

"Babe?" he calls me.

"hmm?" I wait to hear what he has to say.

"I'm not pushing you I just want to know why you're so closed off about your past relationships" he makes circles on my arm.

I sit up and look at him. The room is dark, but I still see his ocean blue eyes from the light that is coming outside. I have been dreading this day, but I guess this is what I need to do in order to let go and fully open up to Greg. At this moment my feelings are jumpled up between Kevin and Greg.

Kevin is my friend who I do have some sort of feelings for, but I have decided it's best for us to be friends. He is like an older brother and I think I love his like I would love a brother.

Greg can be uptight and sometimes obnoxious, but I have grown to like him. I know it's only been four months since we officially dated and calling of pet names. He is a safe space. I feel secured with him. He treats me well and I can sense that he loves me although we haven't said those words, I know he cares for me in that level.

"I've only been inlove once ,his name was Mark...."

Flashbacks

"Mark would you stop tickling me" I laugh as I'm crawled up in bed with my boyfriend. "Say you love me" he continues tickling. "Not before you say it" I laugh even louder. "I love you Annalise Montgomery" he says and looks into my eyes. I know we are teenagers and what do we know about love right... But I can feel it. I love him and I can't explain it I just do "I love you Mark Brigde"

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"Anna relax you passed" Mark tries to comfort me as I  wait for my grade 12 results. He kisses my forehead and a few moments later we are celebrating my achievement. I will be going to the same University that he already attends and I can't wait to experience University with the love of my life.

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"I'm in University for crying out loud, I'm trying to live like any Uni person and I don't need you breathing down my neck, you are not my Dad!" I shout at Mark as he pulls me out of a party that I decided to go to. "Yeah well I won't have you drinking like it's the end of the world". Its not always smooth and there are moments where we fight, but every couple goes through rough patches.

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It's Mark's graduation day I can't believe my baby is graduating and starting work soon. I am a year behind him, but I'm hoping that I get all my credits and graduate next year. "I can't believe I won't be seeing you everyday now" he says into my neck.

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I keep checking my phone every now and then and still no text messages. Where the hell is he. I think to myself. I get called on stage to accept my degree certificate and there is an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach that I can't avoid.

After my graduation ceremony I call Mark for the billionth time and a woman picks up. She is sobbing. I'm told that there was a blow to the head and the uber driver also didn't make it.

End of flashbacks